Econs and Chem in relationship

What would you do when 2 or more people are coming after you? Knowing that they are all good people, not wanting to hurt anyone’s feeling, who should you choose or how do you choose?
Knowing that your current bf which you have known for about 2 years, who is loving, caring, but you often have much fight, misunderstanding, lack of trust and faith. But yet, the time spent, the things that you have been through, the love that you experience, the things that you are willing to sacrifice for him, you can never forget it.
One the other hand came an almost perfect guy, smart, honest, always willing to care and is always there when you needed help. One that you know for certain will not let you down, one that will surely be there in time of need, one that has a bright future in front of him.
What should the girl do? Wanting to be friends with guy2 might be giving him false hope might send the wrong signal to him, but she doesn’t want to risk her friendship. Yet somewhere is her, she is uncertain of how she feels about him. So, what should she do? To be unfaithful or to be realistic? Economics coming in, to take into account of the long run cost and benefits, to take into account the opportunity cost... But make a decision, don't leave both of them hanging...

And as a friend, what advice should we give?
Are we suppose to draw out a CBA(cost-benefit analysis)? Is there protectionism? What about the diplomatic relations?
Maybe the Hess’ Law is applied here. (A chemical reaction is the same whether the change is brought about in one stage or through intermediate stages. In other words, you will come to the same ending no matter which route you are taking.)
Will it be easier to choose your partner is formula is given? For example you can solve it by using E=mc2?
[the elements of pray, follow the word of God, seek for guidance, ask more matured people about their opinion should be included as well…etc…etc…]

*Just some random economics and chemistry added into BGR. =D

Evaluation

This is very interesting, because here is the place where people point out your wrongs. There is nothing wrong to tell a person that he/she is not good enough, that what they are doing is wrong, and that you can’t stand what they are doing.

Well, in the process of doing so, we have to take care of what they are feeling. But this doesn’t mean telling them that settling for second best is ok.

Which do we prefer?
1. “Hey, you did badly this time; I think you are not putting enough effort. Why don’t you try spending more time and buck up on your skills?”
2. “Hey, you didn’t do that bad. I’m sure you’ll do be much more skillful as day pass by.”

Well, both carry the same meaning. But which one will give the individual a push, an urge to do better?

Doing this, we have to look at different individuals as well. As in if they will take it in a positive way or what we say is going to discourage them. There are many factors that have to be taken into account as we are talking. Out of our mouth come the thoughts of our heart.

We, as the person that is listening have to take all accusations and opinion positively. There is always room for improvement. They are not trying to put us down; these are just pointers to help us to be a better being.

Are we some times not truthful enough? Maybe we are trying to care about their feelings; we do not want to say anything that may jeopardize the relationship. But come to think about it, the more you care, the more we are suppose to encourage each other and hope for them to improve.

But this doesn’t mean that whatever they say is 100% correct. We are also given wisdom to discern. We have to think for our own and not follow blindly. If what they say is correct, change, learn from our mistake. This might not take place in a day or two. It might take a long time but when there’s a will there’s always a way. But if what they say is not right, stand up for our own right.

There are many opinions on different things. The way we look at things might be different. Evaluation is a good way to see if we are on the right track. Looking for room of improvements and working towards it. =D

Chain Of Incidents

What else can go wrong? I was very home sick yesterday, everyone is going home for Raya, at least most of them. But that is not the story for today.
Today was the first day of exam, pretty exciting, woke up later then usual. Going into the lab, all set, the reagents are all on my table as they only have limited space in the lab and was left lift with little place to work with.
I sort of started the “breaking chain”. First, I broke the burette, then my Bunsen burner was not functioning, then later the specimen bottle broke. Later, my lab partner on the tap and my paper was wet. The reagents given were not enough and I needed more. Later, I realized that I was running out of time and started writing the wrong stuff on my paper. What more can go wrong?
Maybe I wasn’t prepared enough for the paper. Maybe I wasn’t focus enough. Maybe I was just too slow. Maybe I am just not smart enough. But in everything, there is surely something to be thankful about. hmmm... I’m just glad that no one was hurt throughout the experiments and that at least I finished the paper.
What a way to start the exam…

Then came the question from Azeim, what if we can’t make it? What if we can’t fly? What if we can’t meet the requirement…

BoyMeetsGirl

It has been some time since I last read a book from page to page besides my magazines and text books. This is a very interesting book, the initial reason I read it is because I borrowed it for too long and it isn’t so good to return without reading it. But after a while, I slowly feel in love in the book. Sitting in the library thinking, should I do chemistry or finish this book first. So I finally decided to read the book for the first 15 minutes I step into the library. Is there such thing as book addict? How I wish it could happen to my chemistry book as well too. ;p

I like the content of the book. It is about “God as the center”. The term courtship is nothing new to me, everyone who knows Uncle Jason will know this term. But after reading this book, it caught me thinking; it brought my thoughts a step further, it’s written in a very simple manner and yet carries much truth in it.

Well, the one thing that I really agree is that we must be patient. Don’t rush!!! Even tough I often rush in under many circumstances – work, studies, learning… but this is something rushing 100% won’t help. There is nothing wrong with starting the relationship being just friends, in that way, we can be more of ourselves. It is good to wait upon the Lord. with beautiful leaves and abundant fruit, providing food for all, giving shelter to the beasts of the field, and having nesting places in its branches for the birds of the air. What more us? I know God has a plan for each and everyone of us.
Some friends might come to us when they face relationship problems. We try our best to listen and encourage in ways that we can.

I really thank God for pulling me back as I pass the line, went over the limit. He loves us!!! As long as we repent, learn from our lesson and learn to lean on Him, He will be there for us. Having regrets, feeling the guilt, what can I do? It is not that easy to forget, but our faults may be a reminder to us in our future and by His grace we can get up, having a new chance to live a new life.

After reading this book, looking around, there are actually not many who follow courtship. What can we do when we know our friends are not doing the right thing? They have known each other for years and we are just old strangers or new friends to them. So far, I only know of a few that are willing to take courtship seriously, or plan to have one. Percentage wise, I can say it is lest then 1%. But I know that if they continue seek and pray faithfully, God will indeed provide the best for them.

There is no such thing as 1 way for a long lasting relationship. But for all those out there who are still single, still seeking, courtship is certainly a good formula to have a happy and long relationship leading to marriage. =D

Do everything in love

I found it, I found it =D

Here’s a verse that I saw about 2 weeks ago. But I did not bookmark it and was searching for it for quite some time. And finally, I found it =D


Do everything in love.
1 Corinthians 16 : 14

It’s a very short verse. But it is very meaningful. Think about it, if everyone does everything in love, won’t this place be a much better place to live in?

What will you choose?

Make everyone happy by doing what they like
Or
Be happy yourself but disliked by others

Sleep when you are extremely tired
Or
Stay awake to help your friend throughout the night

Telling straight to your friend that you don’t agree with them
Or
Just compromise and try to make them happy

Save up a few meals so that you are able to bless others
Or
Just eat, not that they are expecting much for us anyways

Tell the person you like them and risking the friendship
Or
Be happy for them even when they are with others

Being in a funeral to console your friend
Or
Appear in you long planned birthday

Speaking out your thoughts not caring that you’ll hurt others
Or
Keep quite and contain the debates in our own heart

To be happy
Or
To see people happy

Disturb others when you are bored
Or
Stay bored and let them use their time more usefully?


* These are random stuff that doesn’t really make much sense and is written when I’m half asleep.

Unknown Ringing

“Ring Ring… Ring Ring… Ring Ring” I just wish that I can pick up this call and find out who’s on the other side of the line. Is this a chat room or a direct phone call from one individual? Well, this is an invisible phone, just something in my head, I think its my conscience. Or is it my imagination? Or … I’m also not sure. Its just that random thoughts and random action just take place nowadays.

Having two random people who doesn’t know each other telling me the same thing. DEATH! Well, is death just statistics? Well, when we open our newspaper, it does come in numbers if that is what it means. The thing that these two individuals pointed out and asked me a similar question. “What do you what to be remembered as when you die?” I have heard these countless time since I don’t remember when. I always thought that it is just been a normal topic to motivate you, telling you that you can’t control the time so make the best out of it… don’t have any regrets when you pass away. I’m not sure why, but something is not right, why is it running around in my brain? Why can’t it just settle in the neuron and stay there?

The second ringing, it’s the Jabez prayer. I know this prayer by heart, since young, my mum always recite it to me. Two more individuals’ sort of touch on this topic and once again, why is it running around in my head? Am I supposed to learn something? Or know something? Is there a hidden meaning that I should know of? Is there a easier solution or calculation that I can use or is there a formula that I have not learned? All things are connected one way or another. But are these just random thoughts or is there something that I need to take note of?

甚願你賜福與我，

擴張我的境界，

常與我同在，

保佑我不遭患難，不受艱苦。

歷代志上4：10

Well, I can’t really read everything above but I’m sure the copy and paste is correct. =D

The third ring in my head… Well, time is running out, will share more in the future ;p

GOD OF MY FOREVER

GOD OF MY YOUTH I REMEMBER
YOUR CALL ON MY LIFE TOOK ME O'ER
YOUR LOVE HAS SEEN ME THROUGH ALL MY DAYS
I STAND HERE BY YOUR GRACE

ON THIS ALTAR I'VE WRITTEN MY LIFE
TELLS OF THE STORY I HAVE WITH YOU MY LORD
I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW

GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I'M WITH YOU
MY LIFE IS SAVED WITH A PRICE
YOUR SACRIFICE REDEEMED MY SOUL
GOD OF MY FOREVER
AND FOREVER I WILL SING
MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE
TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING

GOD OF MY LIFE I'VE SURRENDERED
MY HEART FINDS ITS REST IN YOUR WORD
PRAISES WILL NOT BE ENOUGH TO SHOW
HOW MY LOVE FOR YOU HAS GROWN

NOTHING MATTERS WHEN YOU'RE HERE WITH ME
IN THE END JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY “WELL DONE”
BOWING BEFORE YOUR THRONE



FOREVER AND EVER
JESUS YOU ALONE IN GLORY REIGN
FOREVER AND EVER
WITH YOU I WALK THIS NARROW WAY



*different songs speak to us in different ways. are these just words to us? or are these commitment, assurence, and promises we are making? in this song, 'MY GREATEST HONOR WILL ALWAYS BE TO SERVE MY LORD AND KING' it really hit me when i was about to give up serving, only then i realised that the fact that we are able to serve, we are blessed. I mean, how did this thought even come into my mind? My cell leader talked to me, the song spoke to me, and the bible showed me. We might have negative thoughts in times of trials. God speak to us in different ways. I did not see a shining light that speaks. We might look alright from the outside and everyone thinks that we are doing fine. But when the time comes, God will indeed speak into us and will actually make us fine. And when we sing 'FOREVER AND EVER JESUS YOU ALONE IN GLORY REIGN FOREVER AND EVER WITH YOU I WALK THIS NARROW WAY' be sure that when difficult times come, he will lead us through it. He will not put us through what we can't bare. Continue to love and obey. He' s watching over us. Yesterday, today and forevermore. =D

Shepherd of my soul

Shepherd of my soul I give you full control,
Wherever You may lead I will follow.
I have made the choice to listen for Your voice,
Wherever You may lead I will go.

Shepherd of my soul I give you full control,
Wherever You may lead I will follow.
I have made the choice to listen for Your voice,
Wherever You may lead I will go.

Be it in a quiet pasture or by a gentle stream,
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side.
Should I face a mighty mountain or a valley dark and deep,
The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide.

Shepherd of my soul I give you full control,
Wherever You may lead I will follow.
I have made the choice to listen for Your voice,
Wherever You may lead I will go.


* At some point of life, we might seem lost. We have regrets of what we have done. How can we undo such things? How could we be so heartless at that moment? Where have all the rational people that we are suppose to get advice from? Why did we not think before we act? Where is our self-control? What do we do when it is just too late to fix things? So lost, so down, so uncertain, so frustrating, so guilty, a heart full of repentance, do we just close an eye on the things that people says to us? Or do we act like nothing has happen? We can’t turn back time, we can’t undo certain mistakes. Committing every to Him, hoping for a better tomorrow, hoping that things won’t be the same, hoping that people will forgive, hoping that we can forgive ourselves. I choose to follow, follow where you lead me, I may not be perfect, but I know Your love will never change. That you will lead and provide for my every needs. Lost, so lost, just hoping to find the way.


*Was browsing around, and found another song, Title: Grand Prize - Shepherd Of My Soul.
Well i've never heard this song before, but the lyrics are nice though, speak right out from the heart it seems.

Is my life what You had in mind
I feel I'm falling behind
On the outside I look fine but
my heart is dark as wine
I look to You to pull me through the
quicksands of my life
So why am I lonely
Since You have risen

Be the shepherd of my soul

Oh my God what went wrong
I'm thirsty and I long to be filled
with Your love that only comes from above

Hosanna - song

Verse 1
I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

Chorus
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

Verse 2
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

Bridge
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity


* A very lovely song, very meaningful. Didn't appreciate at first, but after listening to it for quite some time, and suddenly can't stop listening to it. =D

Routines?

Eating, sleeping, playing, praying, studying, working, surfing the net, chatting, messaging… these are some of the daily “routine” that people go through.

What will we do when suddenly these things just don’t go the way we want it to be? What will we do when we don’t have food to eat, can’t sleep, no play time, what’s next after our studies? “No internet connection in this area?”- don’t be surprised when people ask this question. Suddenly your close friend stops messaging you, what happened? You suddenly can’t focus in your work; you suddenly feel a distance away from people.

Something doesn’t go right; the first thing that comes to mind is “did I do anything wrong?”. And when we can’t find the fault, the mistake, we are troubled the whole day.

Are we too used to routine? When something doesn’t happen the way we expect it to be, we get frustrated, we ponder, and we are confused. The question of what’s next is always there…


Here’s a short story:
There is once a bunch of college student who stays together. There are close, they hardly fight, living in harmony. But no one liked to do certain chores in the house. Suddenly, one day, one of them decided that he wanted to take up the chore and do it. None of them like to do the chore, but he doesn’t mind doing it even though it might be a little troublesome. So he took up the responsibility, having the thought that doing something out of routine is nothing compared to having a house full with unhappy people when it comes to chores.
To his surprise, the housemates did not that him, but instead scolded him and said, “don’t try to be holy, we know you don’t enjoy doing this.” … >.<” Ouch, never did he thought that such words will come out from their mouth. He wasn’t even hoping for a big thank you but he never expected such respond either.
When we do good, we do not expect something in return, but what is heartbreaking is when people think that we have motives, that we try to bribe them, that we are up to something fishy. Are these things and these thoughts disturbing? But are they going to stop us from continue doing what is right? Be strong in the grace of giving. Don’t become talkers but become doers. We might be in a situation where all around us are against us. But remember that we are created for the glory of the Lord. Do all things for His glory. We might be the odd one, but we are certainly not alone.


* story is not related to what’s written before it, just some randomness. :p

Do people think too much?

Do smart people think too much at some point? Here’s a situation. One day, I invited a friend for a dinner with a group of four. I said, “hey hey, John asked you, asvin and I for dinner. So come along k.” it’s a normal day situation. But I was humored with the reply I got. He was saying, I have 5 theories about this invitation.

First, he really invited the 3 of us. Second, he invited you and you are bringing both of us along. Third, he invited you and you don’t want to have dinner alone with him. Forth, you are bringing me along to make someone jealous, and fifth, you have nothing to talk to him and bring me to start a conversation.

How much can a person think out of one simple question? I just laughed and replied, when I say he invited you means that he actually invited you!!!

Are we thinking all these stuff because it happens too often around us? Here is the reasoning for him to think this way. First, there is the probability of him inviting the 3 of us. Second, sometimes, people don’t feel easy comfortable being alone with another person, well, it is no harm in bringing others along as long as the other party knows about it. Third, the more the merrier, when there are more in a crowd, it will be livelier. Forth, people sometimes get close to others to make someone jealous, but we must always remember the golden rule, people has feelings as well. And fifth, when there are more people gathered around, it is easier to initiate a conversation and there are more things to talk about.

Sometimes, when we think too much, it just leads to trouble and it might make our life miserable. But on the other hand, it prepares us for the situation to come and that we will be more cautious. But in everything we do, do it out of love. Love, be it in family, friendship, people that hurt us before, maybe even to random people around us, or even people far far away that needs our help. It is good to see other people are blessed and the smile on their face. Meet a need when you see one, it doesn’t matter if it is appreciated or not, it won’t be sincere if we are expecting something in return. =D

At last, we had dinner together in Batavia. Its Indonesian food. Food is a good way of bringing people together; catching up with what was left behind, getting to know each other more… And we had a long long chat of random stuff and went home happily. =D Praise the Lord even if it’s a bumpy road that we are going through.

A loser?

What do we do when we feel like a loser? There are times that we fail, times that we succeed in life. But what actions can we take to overcome such things? Well, the best thing for us to do in such situation is to take a break, think of what went wrong, pray about it and work on it.

It is sometimes not that easy especially having people around us looking down on us. What more those who are close to us? Fixing the problems takes time. There are not much point fighting with them and defending ourselves. Is it not better to have patience and continue to work to overcome our failures? The best way to prove them wrong is to make sure that we succeed in the future.

We might feel down, feel that there is not much purpose in life, negative thoughts will come to us at such time. But we must stand strong and not be shaken. We need perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that we may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

When times that we feel useless, alone, uncertain, be sure that He is always watching over us and will certainly guide us and be with us all the time.


*We are not perfect being, there are ups and downs in life. But we are over comers!!!

Year End goals =D

Its my first day of fast, fast and pray for my family and my studies =D. Not that bad, but having the urge to go online to chat on and off. Its also the first day of college, not that bad also. Well, people make their New Year resolution and work towards it. But I haven’t set much goals though, always having the mindset of if you have no goals, you have no disappointment. But well, maybe its time for a change. But this cannot be called a New Year resolution though, because its not New Year. =D maybe its just some stuff I want to do and hope to achieve. Was chatting the other day, my friend said something I it was stuck in my head since then. “Why not glorify God in everything you do?” I know this, but it just sort of keeps ringing in my brain since that statement is made. So, here are some things that I hope to achieve before I regret not doing it. In a race, all runners run, but only one will get the prize. So, we shall run in such a way that we get the prize. =D

1. Scoring in exams – well, we always talk about faith, but a man is justified by his works, not by faith alone. As a student, the best thing for now is to be a testimony is through our results.

2. Have patience – a realized that I like to rush people, but most of the time is because other people are rushing me. And I have to learn to have patience when it comes to lots of random stuff. Have my regrets and will learn to set things right.

3. Finish my book – haven’t been reading much but this book did caught my attention. Borrowed it a long long time ago but can’t seem to finish it. After reading a bit, I realized that there are many things that I don’t understand yet. (will write a blog about it after I finish reading =D)

4. Live a healthy lifestyle – well, first I have to start with a healthy diet. Our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. Keep is healthy keep it clean!!! And some exercises will do me good as well. And have at least 4-5 hours of sleep per day.

5. Start a record of my budget – I’ve to learn to be a good steward of $$$. Was thinking back, I realized that I myself don’t spend much, but I have to keep an account of where my $ goes. (it’s amazing that I had only 2 figure in my account in mid August. But I’m still living till now, indeed He will provide when we give faithfully.) Was blessed by my dad, my mum and my sis.


Well, no point setting too many goals and not working towards it. So, this is so far 5 objectives that I will want to achieve by the end of this year!!!

Some Bugging random thoughts

1. Why would someone buy vodka knowing that he/she will never drink it? Random actions that has no explanation?

2. Why do we expect to find a perfect partner when we alone are not perfect? And when the perfect person shown up, we find that we are unworthy and back off?

3. Why do we get homesick when we just leave home for one day? Even when we have lots of activities around us.

4. Why do we smile all the time when there are actually nothing much to be happy about? And can’t even cry when we are depressed? Till no one can actually tell how we feel from the outside?

5. How do we say that we are close to God when non-Christians know the bible better then us? How can we not remember much even we have been reading the same stuff over and over again?

6. Why do we have endless chats online and have practically nothing to talk about when we meet each other? Does internet create more problems then solving?

7. Why is it that random things just appear when we say we want to focus? Why do random people appear when we have other better things to think about?

8. Why is it hard to say “no” to a close friend even if its inconvenient? Why is it more fun to see our friends being happy rather then being happy doing other things that we enjoy?

9. Why do we feel guilty when we do something wrong and when others don’t feel a thing at all? Why do we feel extremely guilty when someone is upset because of us?

10. How do we celebrate when we do well but others don’t? And how do we don’t do well when everyone else is doing well? Where will we be many years from now?



*How do we expect people to understand how we feel when we sometimes don’t understand how we ourselves feel?

Bar B Q

Was browsing through blogs. One blog did caught my eyes, that’s Ah Fu’s blog. First time going into his blog, and I can see food food and food. =D How can someone like me who likes to eat have no food picture in my blog? But just realized that we were too busy eating and only managed to take 4 photos.

Well this dish looked interesting and looked delicious but it somehow tasted more like flour.

Its in Bar B Q, in Pyramid of cos. the food there is ok. But we enjoyed cooking!!! Some burnt, some overcooked, some not so cook, but well, at least we enjoyed it.

Well, this is a place that we can hang out for hours, just catch up, chat, and talk nonsense... heheh.. =D

Troubles = sleep = decisions

Some time, some part of life, we are just troubled. We can’t concentrate, can’t seem to do things right, even the simplest things we get it wrong. But we just don’t know what is troubling us. Hmmm… we just suddenly feel down, not knowing what to do next. Everything just seems wrong. We sometimes just randomly don’t feel like studying, working, doing what we normally do.

What can we do when we face these situations? Having the want to do nothing feeling, we are easily influenced. If those around us are doing drugs, drinking, clubbing, lepaking… we will tend to follow. Is this when we get into more troubles and feel stupid when we wake up?

Or what we can do is to sleep over it. Sleeping helps in many ways. When we wake up, we just seem to be calmer, everything else just seems to fade away, and we can think and decide more rationally. It gives our brain time to structure things. Put all the unnecessary things behind, and when we wake up, we can be more focus. No bad influence by anyone. No waste of time, no waste of money- instead of going bowling, pool, arcade, cyber café, movies… we are recharged when we wake up, and it is most effective when we pray right when we get up from the bed.

But eventually, the day is how we want the day to be. We decide how we want to feel. Its either we make our decisions based on emotional or rational. We can’t control everything around us, but we certainly can decide and shape our own day.

Heroessss = Teaching us about life?

Do we each have a mission on earth?


There are friends that will help us on the way.


But there might also be time that we have to discern.


So we need to think hard!!!


We will find out soon. =D

Holidaysssssss 3

Once again a day has come and goes. Hmm… not a very fruitful holiday so far. Pretty much alone in the morning and afternoon. Everyone goes to work and school. Well, when we have to go for classes, we complain and when we have too much holiday we complain too. Sometimes, come to think about it, in certain situation, we don’t treasure when we have it in hand, but we complain and get disappointed when we lose it.

Just started the walk with - MARK, again. Well, many times have I read this book. It’s the shortest among the 4 gospel. But how much do I really know about it? Reading and understanding is two different things. Maybe this holiday I shall find something different about it. Maybe a hidden meaning, maybe I could unlock an unknown secret. =D

Hmm.. getting bored and nothing much to do. My “chatting kaki” are all offline d. guess its time for me to do some stuff not in front the comp, maybe find something more useful to do. :p

Holidayssssss 2

Holidayssssss 2

Well, its about 1.30am in the morning. Not having much to do, that’s when life gets bored I guess, we end up doing pretty much nothing, that’s why we must always keep our mind occupy!
Well, I told myself that now the important thing is to make sure I can “fly”. But having the books In front of me, nothing seems to be going in. How can we get bored of studies? Well, like it or not, we have to do it. So, better enjoy while doing it. =D.
There are also few more things that might affect our studies, but MUST NOT GET DISTRACTED!!! For other things, I rather go with the flow. Its much easier that way. No worries till it actually hit you.
Its already 2 something am. Wrote so little in half an hour.. hehe.. have been watching the C walk and some Classical Gas. WOW, their guitar is awesome! This is real talent and skill. Thanks to Big John, this night ended with something different! =D

Here’s something about life,
Alan Bennett:
Life is rather like a tin of sardines - we're all of us looking for the key.

Holidaysssss

Holidaysssss

Another holiday is here. Will it be a fruitful holiday? Will there be anything special happening? Time flies. It has only been less then 15 months since I started college. Yet, many things have happened. Good things, bad things, things that don’t make sense, all cramped up in these time. Our ring of friends change, our approach to things change, our views changes, the things that we go through shape us and will make us who we are in future.

Getting hooked onto different things at different part of life, the way we look at things, the way we overcome it, those around that help us overcome it. This has made the bonding between our family members, the bonding with friends, and the bonding with all those around even closer then ever, and yet for some further apart. As we take ever step further into the future, we face new things; things that we never thought will be part of our lives. But yet, no matter what happens, God will make a way for us – either we continue to face it or we have to turn 180’ away from it. may it be good or be bad, there is always someone out there watching over us, praying for us, making sure that we analyze every move we make, guide us and protect us from harm.

Not expecting much for this holiday, just hope to have more badminton, more boling, more outing, more swimming maybe, and certainly some studies need to be done. And not forgetting longer period and more effective quite time, learn a bit more guitar and help out wherever I can. Not forgetting building a strong bond with those around us. =D

Invasion - a life without emotion

Invasion -  a life without emotion

Its once again after exam period. After a period of much interaction with books, we finally got to go out together for a movie, pool, also and boling-and I lost to Asvin!!! How is this possible?.. lol... Not to forget the most important part--- FOOD!!! It was a nice Sci-Fi movie. Asvin was covering her eyes most of the time though. Yen Ling is immune to all type of scariness, and Hari always acting macho as usual. But what is important is that we had lots of fun. =D

What would this world be if everyone has no emotion? No feeling? Fights, Nagging, Screaming, Sadness, Confusion, Frustration, etc… etc… None of the above. We might get use to it but would we not be bored? What is life without Happiness, Laughter? Is sadness bad? Are all fights bad? If life is without emotion, there won’t be any suspense, no excitement, no meaning to move on in life. No competition, no chance to express what you know, everyone the same—well, if everyone is the same, we might as well be penguins.. =p

Well, holidays are here, time to catch up with family, old friends, just having fun and not forgetting any of my studies.

*random blog about myself, cos some mentioned that I never talk much about myself in my blogs. =P

Fears in relationship

Fears in relationship


There are many reasons why some people do not want to get involved in relationships. Is it because of fear? Or do we just enjoy being not in any relationships?

First, there is the fear of rejection. But in this, some might tell you that if you don’t face it, you’ll never find the answer. Some might also tell you that as long as you do not know it, it won’t hurt you. We do not want to be rejected by our friends, by our family, by people in our work place, by people that we always hang out with, in conclusion most people want to be accepted someway or another.

Commitment. The fear to be committed, do we and are we willing to commit our time, our energy, our earthly things… do we just want a relationship that we can get in and out freely, no strings attached, no barriers of entry and exit? Sometimes we might think that is it worth it? Where can we find true friendship when we are not willing to commit? When we are down, we expect someone to be there with us, but when our friends are down, are we as committed or can we be more commitment.

There is also the matter of security. Some might want to be in a relationship because they want security. It indeed feels good to feel safe with people around you. Some might not want to get involved in a relationship because they do not feel safe. But when the relationship is strong enough, there ought to be trust, and we will slowly stand up for people around us. Having the sense of security often give us a peace in mind.

Friends and people around might also influence us of who we are mixing with. We fear what people might say about us when we mix with different people. Are we made worse when we mix around with bad people? Are we less worthy to be with when we mix with unfortunate people? Are we less smart if we mix with underprivileged people? Are we more childish when we spend our time with little kids? Of cause we can choose who to be with and all, but we do not need to reject others because people around us reject them.

There’s another fear when we want to get into a relationship, we are often afraid that we are not good enough. We are afraid that our standard does not fit the people around us. This is the flaw and it leads people to not being themselves, being a fake person. But if our standard is not good enough, then its time to upgrade. We can’t stay in the mentality that we only want to mix with people of the same standard. We should be more volatile, able to mix with all types of people. There will always be a room of improvement. When we start to think that we are not good enough, then its time to put in more effort to improve.

There might be other barriers that causes fear to be in us when are mixing around. These might mean our culture, our religion, our family background, the generation gap, our environment… but we can’t always make this the excuse for us for not being friendly, for not wanting to mix around…

For every true relationship, there ought to have trust, loyalty, commitment, patience, hope… we must always have hope and not give up easily, we must be able to have to strength to move on, we must be able to decide wisely… All in all, the most important thing is that we must keep people around us in prayers. And also pray that we will mix with the right people. Surrender our relationship to God. We must also be strong and not shaken. All these fear shouldn’t always be the reason why we want to isolate ourselves. NO MAN IS AN ISLAND.

Getting back on track

Getting back on track



Getting used to routine, going through the things over and over again, using the same formula of life, tackling every difficulty that we face, with reasoning and deciding after much analysis. We are sometimes unfamiliar to changes. And often reluctant to leave our comfort zone.

The path is straight, with some bumpy roads; some turnings and sometimes we might face dead ends and might have to make a U-turn. When things go wrong and we are hit again and again, continuously, will we be like the tree that will stumble or are our roots planted deep enough that no matter what wind blow, we are able to come back to position?

There might be times that we are lost and can’t seem to decide, can’t seem to see any light in the darkness, can’t find the path in the jungle. There’s no wrong in staying in the jungle for a while before we find our path out of it, we might resort to waiting for help, and we might continue and wait and hope that a map will appear. But in the end, the important thing is that we have to find our way out.

There might be lots of people, giving various advices, pointing to different path, in the end, we have to decide on who to follow, how to follow and why are we following. We can also build our own path.

With everything around, the crowd, the noise, the wind, the cars… as long as we are able to stay focus, know what we want, and start to really ask and pray, we will find that there are no barriers among us and God, and are able to continue the journey. Being tied down with all the work and activities, we have less time; this is when we learn how to treasure time. Facing failures, this is when we learn how to climb back up.

When our tires are flat, put in more air, when it is wear off, change a new one. When the paints fade, repaint it. When we are bored with it, modify it. When we are less compatible, change the engine. No matter what happen, we have to use the best fuel to keep us going.

Onions

Onions



Some might say, "Life is like an onion. You peel it off one layer at a time; and sometimes you weep." Some might also say that "Life is like an onion; you peel off layer after layer and then you find there is nothing in it."

Things come and go. When good things come, we do not want it to go. But when bad things we just hope that it disappear immediately. But sometimes, it may seem that unfortunate events come and stay, and will not leave till we learn our lesson, or when we learn to out grow the difficulties that we are facing. When good things happen, we sometimes forget to be thankful and often overlook it. When it come to pass or when we down, only then will we start appreciating them.

But being an onion, we can either make others happy, putting flavor into their life or we can choose to make them cry. It’s a choice we can make. But when we are upset, we can also choose to make those around us frustrated or we can choose not to. Are onions good or bad for us? When things happen, we sometimes just need to sit and think all over about what went wrong.

Crying when we cut onions is nothing wrong. Only then we can see who really cares for us. But what can we do about the disappointment that some people just don’t care? Onions might sometimes seem fresh and juicy from the outside but are rotten and dried up in the inside. How many can tell the difference?

Onions come in varieties. Sometimes, more effort is needed to analyze it and sometimes we can just tell if it is good from the outside. Only when we start to appreciate it, we will know the properties of it. Evidence suggests that onions may be effective against the common cold, heart disease, diabetes, osteoporosis, and other diseases. (wikipedia)


** some of the things doesn’t make sense and can be ignored =D

Knowing and Actually Doing

Knowing and Actually Doing

Mankind often can discern of what is good and what is not. Sometimes, it is just that the spirit is strong but the flesh is weak. We know that exercising is good for us, but sometimes we just prefer lazing around at home doing nothing. We know that eating healthy food is important but we still feed ourselves with junk food. We know that drinking enough water is important but we still don’t drink enough. We know that having proper and enough sleep is important but we still sleep irregularly. We are not made stupid, we know many things, but the question is “do we practice what we preach?”

We know that failure is not the end of the world; it is just a part of learning process. When we face failure, we can either blame others, blame other things, but if we look closer, might the problem be within ourselves? Instead of trimming the leaves, isn’t it better if we can treat the root? Get to the source of the problem and resolve it once and for all. What is the use of a lesson if we gain nothing out of it? Then later we might face the same problem and the same regrets all over again.

“The fact that we are ashamed, crying, feeling defeated means that we still have conviction in our heart.” In a way, it is true. If we do something wrong and not feeling guilty, then more reason for us to spend more time to think about what went wrong. Having to live with our failures might be hard, sometimes it might seem like all eyes are on us. But even if we need to crawl, should we crawl till we finish the race?

Having many people around us, comforting us, caring for us when we face difficulties, that is good. But how many are willing to run the race with us? How many are actually willing to tell you straight that you are just not focus enough, that’s why you fail. How many will tell us what actually went wrong?

Faith without action is dead. Motivational courses may be able to push us to do something, to do better in life. But when we don’t persevere, don’t want to help ourselves, don’t want to work harder, don’t want to concentrate, then we better hope for a miracle.

Knowing what is right and wrong is important. But if we just know where the root of our problem is and not working towards to solve it, then the failure merely make us a failure. But if we are willing to make a difference, then the failure might be a lesson, a valuable lesson that will push us to higher ground, prepare us for tougher challenges.

A better painting

A better painting

Life, choices,
The world is still turning,
People come, people go,
Are we here by chance?

What about the road not taken?
Is there more to what we see?
What is the probability of things in life?
Can we explain every move by calculation?

Who said that we can’t walk on water?
Who said that dogs can’t fly?
Who determine our actions?
Can all things be justified?

What will the world be if we learn to care?
What will the world be if we learn to give?

Is this world a cycle?
Are all things predicable?
What mystery is left if we know the future?
Where is the excitement if everything goes well?

Life is journey,
We might not be able to determine where to start,
But we can certainly determine where we end,
And how we end.
It’s a new chapter that yet to be explored.
Mystery, fantasy, destiny awaits.
Making sure that the world is moving together,
Everyone moving together,
Learn to help and care.
Won’t there be a better tomorrow?


*Life is more than me, me, and me. If we learn to spread the joy and happiness, it will be a more colorful world. Putting color and smile into people’s life, won’t our life be more meaningful? “Being thin is not a compliment”, as we eat our life through, think of those who never even tasted chocolate. There is not much purpose in life if the other end of the world can’t even get their necessary needs. Who are we to enjoy life when there is still suffering? Learn to give as we learn to care. We are more blessed for we know that we are able to bless others. Can we put color into people’s life as our own life is painted?

Pouring

Pouring

Alone,
In the silence,
Then came the soft music,
With the guitar,
No one else can hear.

As singing started
Having all worries and thoughts
All cast out
Hoping that there is a solution

Lips moving slowly,
Murmuring,
Who can understand?
Besides Him.

Strings of stress just pour down,
As the music is playing,
Time ticking,
All we can do is pray.

In the stillness
We shall come to know
That His grace is sufficient
What else do we expect?

Pouring,
All the misunderstanding
Hoping,
That tomorrow will not be the same
Wondering,
How could we overcome
Praying,
That He will keep us safe
Knowing,
That we can make a difference
Ending,
With a burning flame


* He will always be there for us when there seems to be nothing that we can do anymore. Continue to trust in Him. Cry out to Him and He will hear us out. With compassion and mercy, we shall be able to stand up once again. There are much more sufferings out there for us to care about. We should just come out from our bubble bag. There is much more that can be done.

Dry tears

Dry tears

Things that we want and things that we can have
When both cannot come to an agreement
Not knowing what is the next step
Is time the only factor that can change all these?
Are we supposed to wait and act as though all is good?

Keeping everything inside,
Having only joyful expression
Hiding the frustration and confusion
When all around seems alright
Something is still missing

Taking every step by faith
Hoping everyday that it might change
Wondering about the decisions that was made
Knowing that there are no other ways
Continue whispering in prayers

When no one else knows,
When all seems unclear,
When you have to handle more then you can bear,
When all things seem alright to those around,
Only God knows.

Lost,
When will these whisper and cry be heard?
Uncertain,
When will the path be cleared?
Disappointed,
When will the heart’s desire be heard?

Still having hope,
Having faith.

Thinking about what have to be done
Tears flowing, dry tears flowing
Still hoping for the best.

Short Story

Here’s a story:
There was a boy who wanted a brand new PS3. He asked his dad for it but dad knows for certain that if the son has the PS3, the son will not study and will be indulged in the game. Daddy then explained and hoped that the son could understand. But stubbornly, the son insisted and cried day and night, rebellious, unwilling to do anything else. Being in such situation, having to take the headache, the dad still insists on not buying the PS3 for the son. When it comes to time like this, either one side must give up, but it doesn’t mean that the one who gives up first is on the losing side. The son will soon see that daddy is doing all these for his own good. And if he shows his willingness and ability to balance his studies and playing time, daddy might actually give him his PS3.

This story tells us something very important. When there are two stubborn parties, one must give up, if the two of them continue and press on, unwilling to take a look at the big picture, their relationship might be shaken.

When we pause, listen to advice, think over it and discern, in the end, we might be able to get the best out of the situation and also able to preserve the relationship.

In the end, the son listens to his daddy and studied hard. And when his results are out, daddy gave his the PS3. Later only that he found out that daddy had already bought the PS3 for him a long time ago, and was just waiting for the right time to give it to him.

Prom

Prom - an exciting, beautiful, loving, and unforgettable night. Everyone there were like prince and princesses. Dressed decently, elegantly, stylish, all are pretty and handsome. Best dress? No matter what is your size, how’s your hair, what you are wearing, everyone is a winner. All these are captured and will soon remain as an unforgettable experience for everyone. Taking photos non-stop, is this the only thing that will preserve the moment?

As for me, I am sure not to forget this night. The guys coming over to fetch us, unintentionally, we were late – putting on our make up, doing our hair, putting on our best dress. Opening the door seeing them smartly dressed. Grown up boys.

Reaching the hotel, all you can see are beautiful people with bright smile on the faces. Seeing our classmates – CEO look, fatherly look, mature look, well, they all look good. Nice food, good MC, grand place, what else do we expect more?
It was certainly a tiring but enjoyable day.



Off to a short tour, we went to Kajang, wanted to eat the famous Kajang Sate but left without having even a bite of it. But we went to PD the next day - Excited. The first thing we did was watch fantastic 4 2. That movie was awesome; cut away the cold, all are good. We went to Yatch Club after that. We went to the beach, running along to beach, we ran across baby crabs – screaming, terrified, and finally a big laugh – stepping on baby crabs? Lol… its really a new thing.

Sitting on the rocks, listening to the wave, looking at the sun, appreciating the beauty of nature. The four of us later went for a delicious home cooked dinner. CRABSSsssssssss… finally, some pd crabs. Later, back at the beach, no alcohol, just some time together with friends.

Being at two places at a time, at the top of Tanjung Tuan, at the peak of the light house, enjoying the view. Time flies, sending my friends to the train station and buying a ticket home for myself. Being at the bus station, the end of the vacation. Must all good things come to an end? Its just like looking at the horizan, we do not know for certain what is coming our way, we just wish for the best. All are in the hands of God, living every single day to the fullest, just enjoying all that are happening around.

True friends?

Our friends determine where we stand in the future. Well, this is not 100% right, but there are many truths in it. Who do we want to mix with? Who is suitable to be our friends? Are we going for quantity or quality? There are many “hi bye” friends but how many friends really know how we feel and how many are willing to sacrifice their time to help us when we have difficulties? Will this person destroy my dreams or will this person stand with me through winds and storms? When we are happy, rich, powerful, people will be attracted to be part of our life; will they still want to be our friends if we are just a normal person?

What are we looking for in a friendship? Are we looking at the long term or short term of friendship? Do we just want someone to be with us so that we will not feel lonely? Do we want friends to just play sports with us? Do we just want movie partners? Long term friends do not come easily; it takes courage, commitment, time, care, love…

There are some people that create a barrier between themselves and those around. Maybe they are afraid, maybe they just can’t trust anyone around, and maybe they just don’t want to trouble others, all the maybes. But no matter how high or how thick the barriers are, commitment and care will break through it.

The general friends that we have are uncountable but those true friends who really understand us can be counted. In the movie “bands of brothers”, they go through everything together and they are even willing to put their life in risk for each other.
Facing life and death together every day of our life will certainly bring to the level of friendship that we will really appreciate. But of cause not all of us face the same situation; however, the type of war that we are facing in this day is different. Friendship may be broken with just a few disagreement, a few gossips, but it will take much more then that to break a real friendship.

How do friends know that we are down? What will they do? Some friends, it is easy to tell from their facial expression that they are troubled, some might just tell us when they are troubled, but for some, it is almost impossible to tell. Well, all these take time for us to analyze but with countless effort, one day, we are sure to be able to sense the trouble even though the person might be smiling all the time. We might not be able to accommodate everyone’s needs but we have to be ready to sacrifice for those that we truly call friends.

Since I came here, I really thank God for all the good people that He brought into my life. We do not expect everyone to be perfect because we ourselves are not perfect. We might try our best to accommodate them and who know, in the process of doing this, there might actually be a true friend. Sometimes we can be cheered up just by a single phone call, just knowing that there is actually someone who cares will make us feel better. They are forever encouraging.

Appreciate the small things that we have and the big reward will come in various ways. =D. The wind might be blowing strongly but if the root is deeply planted into the ground, no wind can uproot it. Just like true friendship.

Do we need or do we want?

 

There are many people around us who are often confused between what we want and what we need. Our basic needs were a place to stay, food to eat, clothes to wear, etc.. etc..
But nowadays, people are looking for more than that. We often ask, what type of house, what type of car, which brand of clothes, which restaurants…

What about when we come to relationship? People are often confused with what we want or what we need. Some may want a relationship for the sake of being attached. They do not care about who the other person is as long as they can say that they are in a relationship. Can this be a cause of peer pressure? With everyone around us that are having a girl friend or a boy friend while we are still alone, is this a new social pressure? We have to be certain of what we want in life. Love is not a game; we are not supposed to play with people’s feeling. I am often warned not to play with people’s feeling. Everyone have our own emotion. Some like to show it out, cry over it, but there are also those who like to keep it to themselves. One of my friends told me that it is easier for girls to get over emotional breakdown because they just tell everything to their girl friends but it is hard for a guy to get over emotional breakdown because they often like to hide it and keep it to themselves – “macho ness”- according to my friend. But isn’t this too generalized?

It is of cause good to have someone that cares, love, willing to sacrifice for you. But do we want to be in a relationship because we want these things; because we crave for it; because everyone around us has it? Or do we want to get involve in it because we really like the person? We often ask for advice, but how can others know how we feel when we ourselves are not certain? Of cause they can give us advice, give us their point of view, tell us the pros and cons… but ultimately, we have to decide on our own.

Is this a dog eat dog world? There are many who like to take advantage of others. No different between guys or girls. But in the end, one will get hurt or both occasionally. Taking advantage of people is wrong! Giving the false hope just to get what we want is also wrong! In this materialistic world, many are unconsciously doing this. Toying people around and change partners like changing clothes is not right. Some might say, I’m only making the best out of everything, I’m not forcing them to do so, I’m just playing along, I should live life to the fullest, I’m this… I’m that… - where will this bring us to? There are many reasons to justify all our actions. But if we know that it is wrong, why do it?

I have a friend that is very cool about this. He is really one of the few that think this way. He always tell me that “there is always a right time, don’t need to rush”. I totally agree with him on this issue. Even though he likes a girl, he wants to make sure that everything goes alright before he pops the question. How many are willing to wait? Or is your partner willing to wait? My other friend said “if they are not willing to wait then maybe they are not worth it”. How do you differentiate a crush and true love? Crushes might be a spear of moment, passion, nothing about commitment at all, are we willing to sacrifice? Are we willing to give up certain habit? Many of my friends often have the ideology that how do you know if you don’t try? Relationship is more like a trail and error thing for them. They often tell me that we learn from experience, so that when it comes to the right one, we know what to do about it. Well, there are many ways of looking at this. I might not agree with what they are doing but they do have their own reasoning. The question of “what if” always come into the picture- what if I stayed with him, what if he is the right one, what if there is actually a future for us… what if… what if… – What about learning from the experience of others? –

Come back to the “do we want or do we need” question. We should ask ourselves before we take any action. I learned that we cannot control other people’s feeling but we can certainly control our own. Is love really blind? Or are we blinding ourselves in the name of love?

Love is important. For God so LOVE the world that he GAVE His one and only son… we should love God because His love for us will never cease. We can be certain that if our whole world may stumble, He will still be there for us. =D

Is money bad?

Money is certainly not everything, but it is certainly something. You can’t buy everything with money but you can certainly buy many things with it. Having lots of wealth is not a wrong thing. But the question is are we slave to wealth or are we the master of wealth. It is always good to posses the riches of earth, but we are ought to use it wisely. Are we getting this wealth through the right way or the ‘dirty’ way? By taking the ‘dirty’ way, we might feel guilty the first few times but if we continue to do so, it will be a norm to us and sooner or later we will loose our conscience. But hurting others, back stabbing, gossips… these are common in this world. However, it is still our choice to determine whether we want to be a part of it or not. It is a good thing to be rich. Love is measured by what we are able to give and not what we are able to get out of it. Blessing others with wealth is indeed very good. When people are facing difficulties, we ought to lend a helping hand, which is within our capability. But we must be wise when we are helping as well. Do they really need our help or do they just want to take the easy way out and take advantage of others? In our helping, we must also learn how to discern, but this is a very subjective thing to say. If we help, people might want to take advantage, but if we don’t, we might feel guilty, what if the person really needs our help, what if the person is know to be a parasite but are we just going to stand aside when they ask for our help? We shouldn’t be selfish and self centered. No one is an island. When we are rich, we should us the money to help others. We will also feel good by helping others. At least we can be certain that we are more blessed when we have the ability to bless others. Sometimes, we might think twice when we want to buy something for ourselves; but when it comes to buying others things, we are alright with it. Do unto others what you want others to do unto you- when we do good, we don’t expect them to repay us, but our rewards may come in other ways. Earthly treasure can finish and be robbed, but the riches we store in heaven will be there eternally.

Money can change a person’s life. With money, we can do lots of things. Even ministries needs money. It plays a big role in our life. For example, 1 dollar is not a problem to most of us; but what will that 1 dollar be to a poor family that can’t even afford a proper meal? Of cause when people are rich, we ought to move into the next level of society. We dress differently, dine is style, put on branded things etc… It is not a bad thing, being at the top, souring among those around us, it is indeed important for us to keep up with our social standards. In the market place, we have to be aware of how we dress, how we act… grooming plays a big part. But as we are moving towards all these worldly things, are we still in control of our money? Are we still willing to lend a helping hand to those who are in need? Or are we now in a different class and that it is not right to mix with the lower class society? There is indeed a gap among the rich and the poor. But do we want to be the one that are in the upper class or do we want to be the one who bridge the gap? We have to stand up in society and be a PHILANTHROPISTt! This may sound foolish and our friends might disagree with us- we have to have the courage to stand up for the right principle. Life always comes to choices that we have to make. And we have to face the consequences of our choices. Are we going to regret later or enjoy it all depends on our choices.

Of cause in all these things, we have to remember to give our tithes. May it be only a small amount now; it is our duty to do so! If we are not willing to give the little that we have, how are we supposed to give the big amount in the future? God loves a joyful giver. God will bless us if we continue to give faithfully and generously. The offering challenge and building fund is always a debate in our own mind. How much do we want to give? Sometimes, we might forgo the things that we like or want just to fulfill our pledge. But if we learn to give, we will be blessed in many other ways.

Whether money is used for good of bad depends on the person that is holding it. It is of cause good to have a lot of money but we shall not forget those who are in need. Who knows, in the future that they will be a great help to us. But if we are not rich now, there can always be a break through. Pray and work towards our goals. We determine how we want to live our lives. =D

It has been about 4 months since I joined my new cell group. Well, it is fun, interesting, and different from where I once joined.

My cell leader asked me, “What made you stay and join us?” I know that it is no good to be a church hopper. Before I made the decision to join, I prayed about it. I came to knew that I wanted a place which can help me grow closer to God.

The enthusiasm which they have, their love towards God and man, and their passion for God really touched me. They are serious with God’s word and they are fun people as well. Having to choose where we want to be belonging to; most people will consider the environment, the people, the location… We should not be comfortable with where we are, we should continue to seek for more, willing to go the extra mile. The sense of belonging is very important. But we have to know our purpose and not be affected by other worldly things. The hunger for God grew as I am away from home. My mom and dad often reminded me to grow close to God and be contented.

Another reason why I choose to stay might be the spirit I see in my cell leader. She never grew weary serving. She is very focus and her love for God and her willingness to do His work really open my eyes – we are not here to be a member or just to participate, but we are here for a purpose. Everyone’s business is her business (in a good way). She call us up, message us, know about our whereabouts, and is concern of each and everyone around. Her passion to share the word of God is strong. She prepares the word well and make sure that it is applicable to our life.

There are also many in this community that are very special in their own way. The fire in them is burning even after some time. I see them week after week but they are always growing and full of energy every time I see them. (We are on fire during a camp and a little while a camp, and our enthusiasm will slowly die off- especially in motivational camps). But the members there are active, cheerful, and forever on fire for God.

There is this small size guy in the cell that inspired me. He will spend his time to approach new members, and follow up on them, even though he knows nothing about us. Despite his size, he has a big heart. And his passion to do God’s work and study his word is amazing. God looks into the heart and not only our appearance.

There is also others that are ever willing to fetch us to church early even if they are not suppose to be there early. A servant’s heart is important and we should live to serve. Humility and the love for all around us are very important. No one here is calculative when it comes to lending a helping hand.

I learned many things from these people. To be consistent, to serve, to seek, to reach out, and the ripping and the sowing is important. We should not be weary while serving. Of cause there are ups and downs in our life but we ought to live our life to glorify God. I have also learned to pray more, read more and care more about others. The journey has just begun, and no one ever said that it is easy to follow God. There are many things that we have to sacrifice but ultimately, it will all be worth it. The best thing is to know that we are not walking this path alone. =D

It’s been some time since I came to Subang already… There are people with various character and attitude. Well, we do not aspect everyone to be the same- especially not like us… This is not a world of PENGUINS!

What do we do when we face problems? Who do we go to when we have problems? Why do people come to us when they have are facing problems? Are we looking for answers? Or do we just simply want someone to listen to us?

Some people may actually approach us because they are really confused and so not know what to do; they might be the ones that are searching for a solution. When we come to these situation, we are ought to give appropriate solution, tell them the real thing that is happening, or maybe tell them our point of view. They might come to us because they trust us, because they know that we will give them the most suitable solution, or just maybe we are just at the right place at the right time, or even maybe they just tell their problems to everyone. We may tell them all that we know and the solutions to the problem. But ultimately, they are the decision maker. When we seek for advice, and advices are given, we have to take the step and courage to face it. But despite of all these advices, we have to discern for ourselves. What are their advices based on? Are they really helping us? So they really care? We are the decision maker! We can’t blame them when things don’t turn out the way we think it would be. When we make a decision, we hope for the best, but when it does not turn out the way we want to be, well, this is not the end. We can just make the best out of it.

On the other hand, there might be those who already have the solution, they just want someone else to agree with them. Do they just want to confirm the decision that they make? Or are they doing this so that they have someone else to blame when things doesn’t turn out the way it should? We can’t blame others when the advices that they give is not appropriate or doesn’t work out the way we want it to be. Maybe they have tried their best to help us but fate does not stand on our side? Life is a journey, we will reach somewhere someday, it all depends on the decision we make today. We must have a teachable heart and learn from our mistakes. The same wind blows again and again – trials and temptation will continue to come, but we must make the best decision and make the right move. Today’s decision will decide where we stand in the future.

There are also some that simply just want to talk about their problems. Good intension or bad intensions? Or do they just like to share what they are going through? Or are they just trying to find a conversation? Or are they trying to teach us something through all of this? Or are they just simply trying to test our wisdom? Or do they just want to bring up the issue? Or do they want compassion? Or do they want attention?

As people who gives advices, we are ought to encounter the problem by looking at the whole picture. We cannot be bias, we cannot be blinded with emotion, and we certainly cannot just don’t care about the outcome. We have to have patience, compassion, and be wise! We tackle different issue with different tactics. Life is not a just a piece of cake, it might be more complicated then it look like.

As for me, where do I go when I face problems? Maybe to my family, maybe to certain friend, but for certainly to God! But one thing to remember is that we are not the only ones that are facing these problems.

Why things happen again and again? Is it just because history repeats itself? Have we thought that these things never end might be because we haven’t learned what we are suppose to learn from it? Or are we just holding on to the pass and cannot let it go? Things happen, do the best we can, overcome it, and don’t regret on the decision that we make but work on it!

But before we take any action and decide on anything, ask wisdom from God, tell Him all your problems, He can certainly be trusted and reliable. Ask God to lead us and walk with us through these difficulties.

Just feel like sharing something that I’ve learned this weekend in church.. =D

What is mistake?

Mistake is to regard or to identify something or someone wrongly, an error in action, calculation, opinion, or judgment caused by poor reasoning, carelessness, insufficient knowledge, etc. which often resulted in unfavorable or undesired results.

What would be the possible causes of mistake in our lives?
There are a few that are listed but what really struck me is point 3.

1. Mistake made out of fear and worry for our daily needs.
2. Mistake made out of ignorance and faulty reasoning.
3. Mistake made out of laziness
- 1 Kings 1: 6
- We always regret that we did not work hard enough after our exams. We will think “if only I spend a few more hours”, “if only I did more practices”, “if only I look through the pass years”… then we would tell ourselves, I’ll work harder for the next exam… But are those the questions that we ask ourselves again and again? When are we going to really change and not make this mistake again? Or are we going to ask those questions every time we walk out of the exam hall?
- Smartness only brings us until a certain stage, but our hard work plays a big part. For example, there are two very talented businessmen. One is willing to work hard while the other is only willing to do the minimum. Who is going to penetrate the market more effectively?
- God does not promote short-cut. We have to work smartly. Laziness is not part of our contract with God. We are accountable for the things we do. Each of us has an equal of 24 hours per day. But how we spend our time determine where we stand in the future.
4. Mistake made due to the lack of self-control.
- Many marriages fall apart because of lack of self-control. We do not test God. If we know that we cannot resist the temptation, sometimes its better to stay away from it. We do not purposely go to unnecessarily places and indulge ourselves in sin.
- We are often tempted especially when we have too much of time. It is best for us to set our goals and know the purpose of life. Occupy ourselves with useful and healthy things. We have to learn to divert our energy to the proper things on earth.
- The pride in mankind can also dangerous. Sometimes pride might stop us from committing the mistakes that we make. Relationships might turn sour because of this. Are all these worth it just because we want to save face?
5. Mistake made out of a wrong value system in our lives.

What is important: We must learn to admit our mistakes


There are also 4 reasons given for us to celebrate our mistakes.

1. Noticing mistakes shows our commitment to quality
2. Mistakes make powerful teachers.
3. Mistakes get our attention
4. Permitting mistakes allows us to take risks


It is not what is done to you that determines the outcome of your life, but how you respond to injustice that decides your destiny. – Dr. Robb D. Thomson-