The truth and makes us better

It has been really busy this year, but its all good!!! Out of this busy period, when we sit down and think, and reflect the things that has happened, only then we realize how much we have learned, how much we have changed and how much we have missed.

But God is always very good, He is always there in the mist of our busyness, reminding us that He cares, that He is listening, that He is still in control and He will strengthen you no matter how tough the situation seems. He send people to check out on you, send people to encourage and send people to just have fun with you.

We can see that sometimes, when one person complain, the other people around might agree and a small thing might seem so hard to achieve or the situation is made worse because of the way we look at it. My mum never encourage us to complain, in fact she thought us how to overcome things. For example, when we complain about how hard the assignment and how hard the things that we are going through, she will remind us that we are not the only ones who are going through this phase, many have done it and many has overcome it. We have an extra helper on this earth, the Holy Spirit will be there to help us as well. All things are possible. Telling us the truth about reality (stop complaining, you are not the only one that is facing it) allows us to make a difference and look at things from a different point of view.

I never really liked to read when I do not understand something. I know that I can still get things done by people explaining to me, by people doing it for me. I know that no matter how many times I ask, they will pity this little person and will spend the time explaining patiently. My brother is a fast learner and he likes to read and learn things on his own. One day, my brother just decided not to help me out with the computer and asked me to read for myself and do it. READ IT, DON’T BE LAZY, ITS SIMPLE. I started reading, and solving my own problems. Just a simple truth, of “don’t be lazy”, I now read first before I do something, if I really don’t understand, only then I’ll ask people.

I have this friend that says whatever he sees, many times, people who does not know him gets offended. But what he speaks of is the truth. I realized that I am putting on weight since I first got to UK, but people around just say that its alright, you still have room or they say its alright, that’s what normally happen when people come to UK. I really appreciate this comfort, I do. This particular person, when he notice the change, he just said, “you’re getting fatter, go exercise!!!”. And yes, a simple truth can change the way that we eat, the way that we live our lives.

Sometimes, when we get too involved in church, our life sort of revolved around it rather than God himself. When we serve, we might unconsciously try to please our members rather than God. We dedicate our time, our effort, all we have into this place and losing the focus of our purpose. I know that we still love God and still want to continue to serve Him. But we are the living testimony of Christ, our lives reflect our relationship with Him, not only inside the four walls of the church. When I get too involved and lose focus, my mum will just ask, “what is your ministry here? Why are you there? Are you glorifying God outside the four walls of the church as well?” Then I realized that I spend too much time in church getting too exhausted to run my own life out of the church. Coming to class late, not able to focus in class, not giving my very best in my assignments, not caring about my friend’s needs ( outside church) etc, are also ways of not glorifying God. One thing I learned is that glorifying God doesn’t mean that I need to attend every single church activity, it is living a life that is pleasing to Him.

There are many people who will give us words of comfort, which is very good. But at times, even when the truth hurts or seem to put us down, we know that by identifying it, acknowledging it, acting on it, we can change and make better of the situation. We can be a better us when we know where to improve and what to change.

Don't make the small smaller!!!

Today started dull, I was so blur during my electronics test. Anyways, things moved on as normal as always. Went to the library, went for discovery, have my dinner, that’s my Monday.

Just to share a little here are some things that I find rather irritating recently:

Have you been in places where people just don’t see you. Just because we are small/short, does not mean that we do not exist. Especially some guys (I’m not sexist) they think that girls can’t put on a DVD player, can’t hang something on the wall, can’t handle machines etc, they can’t stand when you try to give them opinion on these things, its something like “I can’t fix it, you are a girl, you think you can do better? And they try their own ways and try to prove that they are the MAN!!!” Well, you can do the work, I just happened to have a suggestion that perhaps can make your life easier. Not even a word I am saying gets into their head. What do I do when I meet these people? I walk away. What is the point of me standing there. After that, I pray, I pray that God will give me patience, control my thoughts, and look at the bigger picture. Its also one of the reasons that I hang out a lot with my MISC gang, they know you for so long, they know that when you try to say something, it has at least little sense in it, unless when I’m telling a lame joke. After hearing, if it’s a bad idea, discard it.

And sometimes during meetings, conference, I choose to keep quite when I’m with “I think I am highly educated and all knowing people.” When I open my mouth, please do not give the face of “you think you have an idea huh”. I know that you know a lot of stuff, but I reckon that if you would try to listen to the younger/little ones around, you’ll learn from them as well. I was in the Kid’s Church on Sunday, talked to this kid for about 15 minutes. Crying, he told me something shocking “my life is ruin, nobody likes me, they just think that I can’t do anything.” What do I say to this seven year old boy? Only after a little while, I realized that all he wanted is to have a chance to serve. I know that they are fantastic excellent people around, but give the smaller ones a chance, if we do not let them learn, how will they get better? And as they get better, they might give and teach us things that we never knew.

We were talking about excellence the other day. I would like to tell some people that excellence is not only when you are hanging out with leaders and known that you have this attitude. Please treat the new members, the normal members the same as well. Even if we are serving, it doesn’t make us more holy, highly than them. Value people simply because they are precious. I can’t stand people who do not practice what they preach!!! I can’t stand myself sometimes, I talk about self-control, about discipline, about eating healthy food, about exercising, about giving our best for the Lord etc. Occasionally, I still sleep till very late, just lazy to get up, I still eat a lot of cookies, I still can’t control myself when I start on movie series, I am sometimes not discipline in my quite time etc. Only when I see this flaw in others that I realized that I need lots of improvement myself.



Anyways, this blog is not about the things that irritates me. That was just an intro of my thoughts. My day ended well!!! I received a letter all the way from Malaysia. Its from my “Ex.” In it is a serious book so that I’ll continue to walk with Christ“THE GOD OF ABRAHAM, ISAAC AND JACOB” , a distressing comic book, and a lovely card. Its all from ASVIN!!! =D This is truly a true friend. Not because of the present that I got, but it’s the thought that you know you are somebody. It is not just a post, it’s a packet filled with love, friendship, hope, and joy. This is what I call true friendship, we do not need to talk often, we do not need to see each other often, there is no need of explanation of our actions, no need to report of what we are doing. But I know that I am befriended just for who I am, I am kept in prayers, I am still in a tiny part of the heart. No silly statement of, “we haven’t spoken in weeks, months, is there something wrong?” no doubt, no need to do what we do not enjoy, just be ourselves.


I’ll continue to grow in Christ!!!


Book to distress!!!


This term has really been busy, the Malaysian Night, Church, Studies, “social life” etc. I really Miss my family, my mother’s lecture, just sitting by my dad in the car, just talking and teasing my sis, just shopping with my brother. I too miss my dogs, miss my friends, miss my church. More reason now for me to focus and do what I’m sent here to do. Bring glory to God in all that we do. Make the fullest in all situation

To end, here is a very beautiful thing that I read :

IMAGINE
“Imagine a place so irresistible that people can’t wait to get there. Imagine a place so functional that no one ever wants to leave. Imagine a place where the atmosphere takes your breath away. Imagine a place where this same atmosphere causes huminity to flourish. Imagine a plave designed fot no other reason than to connect you with a world beyond your wildest dreams. Such a place exists and has existed within the heart of God since before all time.”
Bobbie Houston, ‘Heaven is in this house’

My 21st Birthday!!!

I’m writing this blog because I do not know that to write on my assignment. I should just perhaps write a short summary of my birthday.

The 21st birthday is suppose to be the BIG event for many. It is suppose to be one of the most memorable birthdays ever. Well, we have the sweet 16, and when we turn 21 and 40 and 60 and 70 etc.

When you’re 21, it means that you are no longer a teenager, you’re now a young adult. Now, I have to be more responsible of my actions, accountable of my actions and make decisions on my own and accept whatever consequences that results.




Well, everyone has been so busy preparing for the grand Malaysia Night, busy with studies, assignments, church etc. My Malay buddies, out of their busyness, manage to squeeze out time for a little party, pizza and cake. (Special thanks to Kak Nadya, Iylia, Hanis, Hari, Amir, Azli, Fahim, Pei Pei, AL, Helmi, Faiz, Khairul, Wynne, Lucia, Ally, Mable, Ben[who is not there in person], Syammi, Firha etc). When blowing out the candles, I was told that I have 3 wishes. I stood there for a while, well, I do not know what to wish for, I haven’t got time to sit down and think of what my 21st birthday wish would be. So at the spot, I wished for 3 general things. First is that God will cover my family with the blood of Christ. Secondly, that God will bless the hungry children and thirdly, that all my friends, including myself will be successful in whatever we’re doing. Well, that was birthday eve.


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Then, on the actual day, we went for a good proper lunch(Wynne, Alex Lawrence and I!!!). Finally, no sandwich and crips for lunch. We’re actually eating real food. We went to China Town and had real Dim Sum and called a few dishes. Thanks to brother Lawrence who generously foot the bill. Then, at night, we had to go home and finish up our assignments.



The day after the big day, Amir brought me to Nandos. We had a long chat, you never know how much of your friend’s life you’re missing out on unless we really have the time to sit down and talk. Its good old friend bonding time. So many things that we overlook when we are busy.

The best is all my sisters text me at the same time(Malaysian time) on my birthday. We chatted for quite some time and time flies. My brother, however, own me a big one. Since he asked me what I wanted for my birthday, I simply replied, “I’ll ask for a big one in 2012, when I get to celebrate in Malaysia again” My mom sent me to loveliest email, it is a prayer for me for my birthday. This is priceless, so much blessings and love in it.

ASH called all the way from Malaysia to wish me, but I missed both of his call. Hehhehee.. But eventually, we got in touch, had a good chat and updating on what’s going on time.

Thanks for all the face book wishes!!! Too many to reply, but I’ll reply everyone in due time. =D
Thanks for the gifts and the effort and even the thought. These memories are indeed something money cannot buy and is something that will last.

God has been good to me, the fact that I am here is because of His grace and mercy. Some of my friends are born knowing that they have the chance to come to UK and study, but for me, this is a real privilege, with God’s blessings, parents wisdom, and everyone’s encouragement. This life for me is full of surprises and I have the assurance that God will provide everything for us for His glory. I’ll continue to walk by faith, knowing that God will be my true friend and hero, who will stick with me at anytime, any situation, any place.

Ending my day by listening to the word of God. I chose the book of revelation, chapter 1. Out of the blues, but it’s a good book. How is the day complete without God in it.

Light unto my path

“Lord please, please let me know my specific purpose here, so that I can work towards it, so that Your name will be glorified even more. Please Lord, I’m listening now, speak to me, anytime, I’m waiting here.”

I cried out to the Lord for several days about this, I really wanted to find my specific purpose here. Some of my friends, even in the early age, can say “My calling is in Malaysia”, another, “My calling is in Asia”, another “My calling is to equip myself for these few years and then go there and go back to my country…”, another “My calling is in the kingdom (market place)”, etc.

I asked God to give me a specific purpose, so that I’ll able to work towards it. I keep on asking Him to speak to me, “speak to me, speak to me, I’m listening, speak to me like You speak to Samuel, I need an audible voice from you Lord, so that I can be sure.”

But then, sooner, I realized, in Psalm 119:105 “Your WORD is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.” READ YOUR BIBLE!!! It will guide you!!! Yes, I have been reading my bible consistently, but not remembering it, not taking it very seriously. I have a good “tour/journey guide” all these while, all I need to do is to follow it closely, study it, put my heart into it!

God will lead us, but STEP BY STEP. When Jesus performed His first miracle in the wedding, He gave the servants directions, a step at a time. “Fill the jars with water”, then they filled them to the brim. “Now, draw some out and take it to the master of the banquet”, and they did so. Then when the master of the banquet tasted the water that have turned into wine…

God will reveal His plan in our life to us. In Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you.. Plans to give you hope and a future” He has a plan for us. He will reveal it to us step by step, as we follow it like the servants in the banquet, and we wait patiently, following the plan, then we’ll be able to see the wonderful plan unfold.

When Jesus was sent to the earth, He did not tell his disciple on day one about His whole journey here would be. It was slowly revealed to them.

He will not ask us to run till He knows that we are able to stand. He will not give us more responsibility until we can handle what we have in our hands first.

I guess His plan for me now is to learn His words by heart, serve faithfully in the little things in church, do well in my studies, pray for people, and just enjoy life.

I have to get ready, so that one day, when I actually have a more specific plan revealed to me, I will be well equip and able to go all out for Him.

There’s a time for everything.

Why are we here?

It is good to share God’s word to people. I actually learn more when I prepare the notes then when I actually attend some other talks.

Was sharing about “why are we here?” with the youths during the youth fellowship. Some of the points were like we are here to worship; we are here to fulfill the great commission etc. When it comes to a point where I was preparing, “we are here on this earth to Glorify God”. Looking back, I have many times failed at doing this.

Thinking back about my school days, my results fluctuate according to years. When I was young, my results are sort of good, till I was in standard 3. Then, it went real bad till I’m in form 3. Starting from form 4, my results slowly catch up. Not good yet, but slowly improving.

According to my performance, no one would think that I’ll even go to UK to further my studies. Ulu Klang maybe, but not United Kingdom.

But people are stubborn in many ways. So many times I fall, learned my lesson but still fall again. How could it be “learned my lesson” when nothing actually change? For example, I just completed my A LEVELS. I did miserably in my first exam. Then I resit for it and got a rather average score but am glad about it. Then coming to the last exam, I spent much time with my computer, resulting 2 months of worries about my results and finally when it came out, it was acceptable, but much worse than the other two person taking the same course, same scholarship as me. Come to think about it, I did not actually glorify God in that sense.

The last part when I was sharing, I told them they we need to change. For this, we have to first “sanctify” ourselves and then set our goals right. To sanctify, I need to repent, pray, have PURPOSE IN MY HEART, and have faith. God has brought me this far, I believe that He will bring to pass all good things that He has started. Furthermore, in setting our goals, we used the S.M.A.R.T. way. This is what I learned in my motivational camp. Our goals have to be Specific, Measurable, Action-plan, Realistic, and Time conscious. But recalling one of Pastor Kong Hee’s sermon, we Christians have God in us. Therefore, we have to be S.M.A.R.T.E.R. We have to have Expectation management and also Revelation.

Going into the new chapter of my life, far away from my family, there ought to be many changes in the way I handle things. I need to now plan financially, it’s not like in KL where I just call home when I do not have enough money. Well, the journey has already begun since I’m already starting to pack. To make it interesting, I think my Offer letter is lost in mailing, therefore, my Visa is not done yet. I need to reschedule and delay the plane. Addition to that, I now fly alone, without my scholar mates. With heavy luggage, big airports, my first transit, I need to find my way to Newcastle. No doubt with my blur face, I have God with me.

Its no use to not practice what I preach. As my fellow youths are changing, setting their mind on the right things to do, I too need to change and start performing.

High School Musical on ice

We went for High School Musical on ice in Stadium Putra.
The tickets are supposed to be for all 5 of us. But then, last minute, my sis and my bro can’t make it, so left the 3 of us phus Ashvin and Khai Xhuen.

After the whole musical thing, Ashvin said, “I think I should go see the High School Musical movie.”

Well, the choreography was nice, based on the HSM movie. Was nice and the costumes are bright and shining. Despite some error here and there, the whole thing turned out to be very enjoyable.

Thank God for the fellowship that we had together.

My God of MIRACLES

Praise the LORD. The waiting time is finally over (for now). Waiting time is indeed a time that we learn to pray more, lean on God, learn more about Him, share more, cry more, etc…

Results are finally out!!! Praise the Lord, I’m going to UK, finally. (shouting, jumping up and down, bursting out in joy)

Let’s see what happened between after the exams and before the results are out.
1. Keeping myself pretty occupied, hoping that I won’t have time to think about it. (traveling around, covered : Kluang, Batu Pahat, PD, Kuantan, Kuching, Shah Alam, Melaka, etc… plus helping out at home)
2. It’s a forbidden thing to talk about the results. No questions, strictly for those who know me well enough. No talking about winter clothing, new stuff that you’ll need in UK, strictly no SHOPPING yet.
3. Praying, crying out, and weeping, for a miracle. I prayed, “God, if you don’t help me this time, no one can, I’m counting on you. I need a miracle.”
4. Don’t discuss much about being an Offshore Engineer. When people ask, “what are you doing now?” the answer was, “well, am just waiting for my results and will decide later.” Thinking in my mind, “please please please don’t ask anything further”
5. Got to meet up and made quite a number of friends, from all around.
6. Learned to be patience.
7. Learned to sleep through anything that comes our way, “pray, be still and fall asleep”
8. Watched almost all the movies in the cinema (English). Plus watched SHARK, Private Practice, Gossip girls, etc.
9. Manage to catch up with some readings.
10. Managing fear and worries, changing it into prayers, hard work, and self control skills.

Special thanks to those who have kept me in prayers.

“From the prophecies in the book of Zechariah, we are assured that He who has begun a good work in us will also finish it.”, “its not the end of the world”
Yeah, that’s how my mum comforts me.

Despite all the head knowledge about resting in the Lord, fear not, worry not, be still, don’t be anxious… well, I confess that many a times, I do all of the above.
It is not that easy for 2 and a half month to pass just like that. But God is always GOOD. He once again brought me through this “determining” period of my life.

For those who did better than me, praise the Lord. Keep it up. For those who are not satisfied, here’s something comforting and true. “well, not everyone who do well now do well in the later stage in their life, and not all who fails now are failures forever, things changes. Do not loose hope, have courage, continue praying.” His ways are beyong our thoughts.

Psalm 17:6
“I call on you, O God, for you will answer me; give ear to me and hear my prayer.”

Prayer, prayer, prayer and prayers... Remember, God is Good, all the time.!!!
Praise the LoRD and thank God for everything.

Sarawak 2

Me kena tipu bila naik sampan



Me kena tipu bila beli barang



Next time mesti do research bila nak lawat lawat



Me likey this guy, very cooool, dun talk ge... hehehhe...

Sarawak

Am at Sarawak with my bro

and LianCy

and her family

comp lagging, blog next time =D
Peace Out

Soaring the Eagle

All good things must come to an end. Having fun with Nadya, Nanu, Mira and LianCy, eating lots of Dominos and playing some card games back at Ridzuan. Time went by just like that. Then, it was time to pack for camp.

Well, it was really fun in the SOARING THE EAGLE camp. It was compulsory, but after stepping foot into KLCC, thought came “lets just enjoy it.” Yeah, so, that’s about it.

We gathered at KLCC, thanks to Azeim’s mum that fetched us to Kelana Jaya with the overweight luggage. From then, we went together, Asvin, Amir, Azeim and I.

There weren’t much the first day, but I meet a very dear Indon girl. DIBY!!! Yeah, that’s her name. She wakes up earlier than me every single day take her bath and will wait for this sleepy head to wake up. Admire her always positive attitude.



Well, entering the class, so many unfamiliar faces, then news came that we’re going to combine with Samba 3. First thing came into my mind was ASVIN, yeah, with her around; I can feel free to be louder. Hahaa..

Then, we got into our respective groups.
Here are our members :



First is Ashvin, the guy that is 186cm tall, man of few words. Got to know him more after finding out that he brought cards to the camp. Well, its amazing how we remember people in different ways. Well, he’s tall, very tall and of cos friendly as well.

Secondly, Jojo, the Artist in the group. Much credit have to be given to her for all the amazing drawings on all our presentation. A very bubbly girl that cheers your day up.

Thirdly, Ali aka Ryan.C - , the host of the “American Idol”. Extremely thin guy that I think is very much lighter than me. A smoker that runs like the wind during sports.

Then came Ainaa, the gentle soul. The way she approaches people is very calming, got to know her more during the walk by the beach at night. Btw, she’s also my housemate. =D

Besides that, there’s Toh, very fair guy, with funny personality. Easy to get along with and doesn’t complain much, he’s ok with most of the decisions the group make.

Followed by Fatin, our AMERICAN IDOL winner, stunning voice and good showmanship. Good when playing Bola Jaring, but sprained the ankle while playing with ganas people like me.

Azli, the guy who doesn’t talk to me much for the pass two years but amazing spoke quite a lot to me during the camp. Well, what can I say, this camp works wonders. But then Azli, I found a guy prettier than you in the camp(pretty boy – Faizi)

Fazreen, the forever cool guy that goes about things slowly and is extremely calm. The guy who can’t detect my voice and loves to play winning eleven.

Last but not least in the group is this small little girl who is bloggig.


Really happy to be in this group. A combination of different talent, different personalities and so time consuming, but it still manage to bring the best out of eack and everyone there.

Well, this camp is really BLASTING, its more than what I can imagine. Got to know lots of great people around. Shared some laughter, cry, shouts, and bunch of fun.

There were too many things happening in the camp that is indescribable. Too many details and too many people to thank.

Learned much from my facilitators and these fellow amazing friends.

Shall be blogging more when I get the time and also internet connection. Thanks so much guys, you all really made this a memorable camp and well, friendships starts with a spark but time will definitely turn us into fiery burning flame that will last.

And our war cry created by Ali, Jojo and Ash, shouted be all :

I say burgh!
Its cool in here I feel Syntium’s Spirit in the atmosphere,
I say ayeyaeyya..ah..
ICE ICE
I say ooh..ahh (x3)
SYNTIUMMMM!!!


Here are some of the sports photos :



And some Casa Racardo food :



Shared some waiting time together :



Miss you all, do keep in touch. Thank you all for the wonderful experience!!!

Give Thanks

Thanksgiving is coming, well, I do not know the date for thanks giving. Is it during Christmas eve? Because that is the time they eat the turkey. Well, after google-ing, I found out that it falls on November 27, 2008 in USA; October 13, 2008 in Canada, it is also the harvest festival for some of the natives.

Well, if thanksgiving is the only day that we give thanks, then everyday day is thanksgiving. If that is the case, then everyday is a holiday!!! We ought to give thanks for everything that we have, every single day that we been through, may it be a happy day for us or otherwise, every breath that we take. It doesn’t mean that its turkey everyday though.

My family is very much thankful and grateful for the abundance blessings that have been shown. And that we can still come as one family to give thanks and to praise Him despite all the challenges we’ve been through. We’re having “thanksgiving” in church this weekend. Well, we’re Chinese, so we’re not having turkey, instead, we’re having 烧猪, yup, roast pork. Besides that, we’re having a little “family presentation”, singing “Just Let Me Say” and “耶稣爱你”.

All who wants to share this joy are invited to Pengkalan Church, Sunday evening. =D

Besides that, Saturday will be my first time officially sharing with the youths. "Living a Life Without Compromise". Well, indeed I went for the camp, but i will not be talking much about compromising while choosing your life partner. “BGR is for young adults, teenagers, focus on your studies!!! Or at least till you finish your Pre-U.” yup, that’s what I learned recently too. I’ll be touching 3 sub topics though - compromising in school, in church and in the outside world.
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While preparing for it, I realized that I am in no position to tell them anything about compromising. For I am one that compromises a lot, well, I always thought that in that way, life will be much easier, I’ll offend less people. But well, we have to set our principles right. One verse that struck me is Luke 6:46 “Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?”

I need to put my head knowledge into practice. And stop being the world’s number 1 hypocrite.