Sunday, March 08, 2009
It has been really busy this year, but its all good!!! Out of this busy period, when we sit down and think, and reflect the things that has happened, only then we realize how much we have learned, how much we have changed and how much we have missed.
But God is always very good, He is always there in the mist of our busyness, reminding us that He cares, that He is listening, that He is still in control and He will strengthen you no matter how tough the situation seems. He send people to check out on you, send people to encourage and send people to just have fun with you.
We can see that sometimes, when one person complain, the other people around might agree and a small thing might seem so hard to achieve or the situation is made worse because of the way we look at it. My mum never encourage us to complain, in fact she thought us how to overcome things. For example, when we complain about how hard the assignment and how hard the things that we are going through, she will remind us that we are not the only ones who are going through this phase, many have done it and many has overcome it. We have an extra helper on this earth, the Holy Spirit will be there to help us as well. All things are possible. Telling us the truth about reality (stop complaining, you are not the only one that is facing it) allows us to make a difference and look at things from a different point of view.
I never really liked to read when I do not understand something. I know that I can still get things done by people explaining to me, by people doing it for me. I know that no matter how many times I ask, they will pity this little person and will spend the time explaining patiently. My brother is a fast learner and he likes to read and learn things on his own. One day, my brother just decided not to help me out with the computer and asked me to read for myself and do it. READ IT, DON’T BE LAZY, ITS SIMPLE. I started reading, and solving my own problems. Just a simple truth, of “don’t be lazy”, I now read first before I do something, if I really don’t understand, only then I’ll ask people.
I have this friend that says whatever he sees, many times, people who does not know him gets offended. But what he speaks of is the truth. I realized that I am putting on weight since I first got to UK, but people around just say that its alright, you still have room or they say its alright, that’s what normally happen when people come to UK. I really appreciate this comfort, I do. This particular person, when he notice the change, he just said, “you’re getting fatter, go exercise!!!”. And yes, a simple truth can change the way that we eat, the way that we live our lives.
Sometimes, when we get too involved in church, our life sort of revolved around it rather than God himself. When we serve, we might unconsciously try to please our members rather than God. We dedicate our time, our effort, all we have into this place and losing the focus of our purpose. I know that we still love God and still want to continue to serve Him. But we are the living testimony of Christ, our lives reflect our relationship with Him, not only inside the four walls of the church. When I get too involved and lose focus, my mum will just ask, “what is your ministry here? Why are you there? Are you glorifying God outside the four walls of the church as well?” Then I realized that I spend too much time in church getting too exhausted to run my own life out of the church. Coming to class late, not able to focus in class, not giving my very best in my assignments, not caring about my friend’s needs ( outside church) etc, are also ways of not glorifying God. One thing I learned is that glorifying God doesn’t mean that I need to attend every single church activity, it is living a life that is pleasing to Him.
There are many people who will give us words of comfort, which is very good. But at times, even when the truth hurts or seem to put us down, we know that by identifying it, acknowledging it, acting on it, we can change and make better of the situation. We can be a better us when we know where to improve and what to change.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Today started dull, I was so blur during my electronics test. Anyways, things moved on as normal as always. Went to the library, went for discovery, have my dinner, that’s my Monday.
Just to share a little here are some things that I find rather irritating recently:
Have you been in places where people just don’t see you. Just because we are small/short, does not mean that we do not exist. Especially some guys (I’m not sexist) they think that girls can’t put on a DVD player, can’t hang something on the wall, can’t handle machines etc, they can’t stand when you try to give them opinion on these things, its something like “I can’t fix it, you are a girl, you think you can do better? And they try their own ways and try to prove that they are the MAN!!!” Well, you can do the work, I just happened to have a suggestion that perhaps can make your life easier. Not even a word I am saying gets into their head. What do I do when I meet these people? I walk away. What is the point of me standing there. After that, I pray, I pray that God will give me patience, control my thoughts, and look at the bigger picture. Its also one of the reasons that I hang out a lot with my MISC gang, they know you for so long, they know that when you try to say something, it has at least little sense in it, unless when I’m telling a lame joke. After hearing, if it’s a bad idea, discard it.
And sometimes during meetings, conference, I choose to keep quite when I’m with “I think I am highly educated and all knowing people.” When I open my mouth, please do not give the face of “you think you have an idea huh”. I know that you know a lot of stuff, but I reckon that if you would try to listen to the younger/little ones around, you’ll learn from them as well. I was in the Kid’s Church on Sunday, talked to this kid for about 15 minutes. Crying, he told me something shocking “my life is ruin, nobody likes me, they just think that I can’t do anything.” What do I say to this seven year old boy? Only after a little while, I realized that all he wanted is to have a chance to serve. I know that they are fantastic excellent people around, but give the smaller ones a chance, if we do not let them learn, how will they get better? And as they get better, they might give and teach us things that we never knew.
We were talking about excellence the other day. I would like to tell some people that excellence is not only when you are hanging out with leaders and known that you have this attitude. Please treat the new members, the normal members the same as well. Even if we are serving, it doesn’t make us more holy, highly than them. Value people simply because they are precious. I can’t stand people who do not practice what they preach!!! I can’t stand myself sometimes, I talk about self-control, about discipline, about eating healthy food, about exercising, about giving our best for the Lord etc. Occasionally, I still sleep till very late, just lazy to get up, I still eat a lot of cookies, I still can’t control myself when I start on movie series, I am sometimes not discipline in my quite time etc. Only when I see this flaw in others that I realized that I need lots of improvement myself.
Anyways, this blog is not about the things that irritates me. That was just an intro of my thoughts. My day ended well!!! I received a letter all the way from Malaysia. Its from my “Ex.” In it is a serious book so that I’ll continue to walk with Christ“THE GOD OF ABRAHAM, ISAAC AND JACOB” , a distressing comic book, and a lovely card. Its all from ASVIN!!! =D This is truly a true friend. Not because of the present that I got, but it’s the thought that you know you are somebody. It is not just a post, it’s a packet filled with love, friendship, hope, and joy. This is what I call true friendship, we do not need to talk often, we do not need to see each other often, there is no need of explanation of our actions, no need to report of what we are doing. But I know that I am befriended just for who I am, I am kept in prayers, I am still in a tiny part of the heart. No silly statement of, “we haven’t spoken in weeks, months, is there something wrong?” no doubt, no need to do what we do not enjoy, just be ourselves.
I’ll continue to grow in Christ!!!
Book to distress!!!
This term has really been busy, the Malaysian Night, Church, Studies, “social life” etc. I really Miss my family, my mother’s lecture, just sitting by my dad in the car, just talking and teasing my sis, just shopping with my brother. I too miss my dogs, miss my friends, miss my church. More reason now for me to focus and do what I’m sent here to do. Bring glory to God in all that we do. Make the fullest in all situation
To end, here is a very beautiful thing that I read :
“Imagine a place so irresistible that people can’t wait to get there. Imagine a place so functional that no one ever wants to leave. Imagine a place where the atmosphere takes your breath away. Imagine a place where this same atmosphere causes huminity to flourish. Imagine a plave designed fot no other reason than to connect you with a world beyond your wildest dreams. Such a place exists and has existed within the heart of God since before all time.”
Bobbie Houston, ‘Heaven is in this house’