Friday, December 29, 2006

its already towards the end of the year
this is indeed a holiday to remember, on the night that we finish my SEM exams, we once again went for steamboat. there were about 20++ of us there, the place was not even enough for everyone. But the smile on everyone's face clearly show that none of this really matter.

Just before i went back to my hometown, my friend and i went for extreme shopping... its almost like money falls from heaven, we just grab and pay... by night, i was already on my way home in my friend's car. can't forget when i step down the car and saw my parents. :)

few days at home and few meet up with friends indeed brought me back to old times. when i went back to my home church, i really felt the joy once again. after much chatting and lots of fellowship, i had to pack to go for a camp at pd. at first, it seems like a barrier during the holidays. but my dad himself fetch me to the destination.

the first thing that came to my mind was CRABSSSSssssss... i was there much earlier then the others. but my pd classmate(heng) came to the boredom rescue. we went up a hill to see the light house under the rain... first time hiking under the rain... lol... when all the scholars arrived, the place is immediately packed. i felt so small when i was talking to them, but this is special situation. the best saying that i learned from this camp is "diamond is a piece of coal that did well under pressure". so, i just hope that place will indeed polish me. :) we played cards(BLUFF) non stop... i thought irving to bluff but that honest person was always caught bluffing.. lol.. one of the thing that i can't forget is when we went kayaking. it was getting dark when we were on our way back home. its like we are not even moving despite that we were using all our strength... we(shalini and i) were losing site of the kayak(angelyn and kelvin) behind, so, i decided that we'll paddle to the nearest shore and rest. i called arthur and by the grace of God, he went and got us rescued. when we were near, i could see some of my friends waiting anciously but was very glad that we came back safely. i felt good to have such friends that care. after that, we went for the BBQ party and went all the way to Seremban for a midnight movie. Heng and Brandon drove us there. the curse of the golden flower was an OK movie... but ju vern and i was sleeping(too tired) throughout the movie. by the time we went back, it was already 3am. this is the first i time i went out till so late without my parents permission. but i waited for heng to reach home safely before going to bed. the next morning, asvin's dad picked us up from kl. on the way home, i got the message saying that i got 2As and 3Bs for my SEM. i really thanked God that i did not fail my chemistry. when i reached home, i checked again... just that i realise that i got the wrong message.... but i was laughing in front of my computer screen.... i actually got 3As and 2Bs. this is a gift from God before christmas :)

the later days, spent it with my church youths... we had christmas presentation in pengkalan, main church.... i recieved lots of chocolate i=this christmas, am very very very happy... i also got a handphone holder from the ngoos, chocolate from mok, more chocolate from the Lais, presents from melody.... and very very nice chocolates from my sister and my cousins.. this christmas can be called a CHOCOLATE CHRISTMAS..... we also had BBQ party with a fun high praise... visitations... makan at Mok's place, movie at my place, football and games at Ngoo's place... enless practices in church... ... it was real fun hanging with these people. we just laugh non stop. the gatherings brought us closer and we grew much stronger in faith.

its only a week left before school re-open. haih....

i'm very thankful that everything went on well throughout this year... eventhough there were some blurness here and there but all in all, everything went well...

Friday, November 03, 2006

The prayer:

Dear Lord,
Have mercy upon me, O God, according to Your loving kindness, according to the multitude of Your tender mercies, blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I acknowledge my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against You, have I sinned, and done this evil in Your sight that You may be found just when You speak, and blameless when you judge. Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, and in sin my mother conceived me.
You desire truth in the inward parts, and in the hidden part You will make me to know wisdom. Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.

Make me hear JOY and GLADNESS, that the bones You have broken may rejoice. Hide your face from my sins, and blot out all my iniquities. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me away from Your presence, and do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the JOY of Your salvation, and uphold me by Your generous Spirit. Then I will teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners shall be converted to You. Deliver me from guilt of bloodshed, O God, the God of my salvation, and my tongue shall sing aloud of Your righteousness.

I am lost!
i no longer know what is happening around me!
things are turning round and round!
my emotions are fluctuating!
my brain is confused!
and my flesh is weak!
I am now lost, really LOST!
and do not know know the next step!!!

Please help me, take me Lord out of this time of trouble
As i cry out to You Lord,
hear me oh Lord, indeed hear my cries oh Lord!!!

I know Lord,
Through this time of trails and temptation, i know Lord that You will make me a stronger and a better person.
Lord, make me strong Lord, in the inside as you have made me strong on the outside.
I do not expect mankind to understand all that i am going through, but Lord please guide me lead me and even carry me when i am lost, when i am too weak to even call for help.
I know Lord that you are always there for me. Lord, please continue to uphold me, for i know that everytime i fall, every tear that comes out from me, every words of my mouth , Lord, indeed you see, hear and understand it. i know that all of this will indeed make me stronger and and i will someday realise your greatness and goodness. i believe Lord that all things will one day be revieled, you will make me a better human that i am now.

Thank you Lord for all you have done
Thank you Lord for being with me in times of need
Thank you Lord for making me who i am today
Lord, even though i can't see the plans you have for me
but i know Lord that you LOVE me and do all things for my own good

Please bless everyone around me
Bless the church
Bless my family, send my love to them though they are far from me
and also bless all my friends

Praise and thank you once again Lord
And as i pray all these in the MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS CHRIST

Sunday, September 17, 2006

The end of my holidays is now here.
Holiday is indeed a good time for us to think over our purpose in life and also some time for relaxation.
Over this holiday, i've finally concluded that my purpose for now is to stay focus and to do well in my studies.
I learned that God gave me this scholarship for a reason and a good reason. I must indeed do my best and not let Him and my family down. I know that i might not be the smartest person around but God has indeed blessed me. I realised that there is always at least a reason for someone to do something in life. The commitment is very important. My will may be strong for now but i also hope that my flesh will be strong as well. I don't ask of man to understand the reason why i am working hard now. But i do hope that even if they do not want to encourage me, they will at least try not to discourage me. But i will not blame them for it is not their fault that i am easily discourage. They might be saying many things that i might not want to hear but i always remind myself that i am not doing all these things for them and pray that God will continue to strengthen me in all that i do. May He continue to give me wisdom and will strenght to continue every single day of my life. All i want to do is to be able to shine for God wherever i go and that one day, i may have the chance to say that my results is indeed because of God's blessing. I'm looking forward to the day that i can actually say "It is all because of His blessing." In Due 28:13 it is said that, "The Lord will make you the head and not the tail". But i realised that the bible also speak of God help those who help themself. There may be many temptation in life and many times men tend to give in to them(i am one of them that always fall into temptations). But now i pray and believe that God knows my heart's desire and will indeed help me throughout this time of need.
All i pray for is that God will indeed bring good people that will encourage me and help me through difficulties into my life and continue to strengthen me in faith and trust in Him.
There was once a joke - the people put up a line on the wall saying "TRUST IN THE LORD" but the letter T dropped down after a while and the whole meaning changed into "RUST IN THE LORD". And come to think about it, i sometimes take life easy and forget my true purpose of life that is to bring glory to His name. I sometimes actually to rust in the Lord but i know that God will be there to keep an eye on me and will guide me back to the right path-
 whenever i start to stray away. But by God's grace, i will continue to grow in faith and do things according to His will.
I must indeed continue to work hard and to be able to testify for Him one day.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

A new day, a new beginning. 
Started the whole day with alll types pf sickness and could hardly border about the things around. 
The world is turning round and round and all i could do is to stay awake throughout the day. 
The climax of the day started only at 7pm- we went to Pyramid and celebrated Khai's birthday. 
I think she was happy eventhough there were only a few of us there. 
Was still very sick thoughout the party but had to stay alert and go through the whole party happily. 
No doubt that i too had fun at the end of the day.

A day before merdeka, ended this fruitful day going for Emerge KL. It started with announcement, Solo presentation, Dance, ..... and finally came to the worship part. The conference was truly awesome! I really had a great moment praising and worshipping the Lord. I personally felt that the praise and worship is really wonderful and its awesome to see so many people praising God whole heartedly. The cries of the people there really brought the presence of God into the service.
Ps. Kong's message really challenged me  lot. I learned that we are to do our best in everything we do. As a student, i have to do my part well, shine for God in my studies. God did not send my to Taylors to preach, he send me here to be a testimony for Him- to shine in my studies. Now, i have to set everything right again. I've to spend more time with God,  spend more time with my books and also spend some time with my friends and also playing. Its quite hard for me to do that because there are too many temptations around me. 
But i know that by the strength of God, all things are posibble.
Ps. Kong preached about being relevant in the society,  there are 7 pillars of the society-Religion, Family, Business, Education, Government, Arts/Culture and Media. Most churches are very good in the religon and family part, but the actual part is that we christian have to move into the market. 
My part is now in education and i have to do my best in it. I know that God has a purpose for me giving me this scholarship and i have to do my best not to let Him and my family down.

The day ended with a nice supper. My friend ordered pork organs for me but i gave him all the pork stuff and just ate the bee hon. The satay there was very delicious too. It was indeed a fruitful day.

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

Cooked lunch and invited my friends over. All we did was eat, play, chat, and eat, and play, and chat....  Later that day, we went to pyramid. Wanted to go for ice skating but there were just too many people in the ice ring. So, we ended up going for a movie instade. We watched Little Man. It wasn't the best mivie ever but it was indeed a good way to spend time with my old friends.
After the movie, we went for KFC(have been eating fast food the whole week). 
Brian(Jeannie's friend, now my friend- a good dancer) and 
Albert( my new found good friend in college) joined us for dinner. 
We chatted till it was dark and went home. 


We played badminton after having McD. It was after college. Heng, Cheng Lee, Cheng Yee, Hui Jin, Ian, Kevin,Kah Ee and I went for a game of badminton in Ritz. It had been a long time since i last played such sports with my friends. Had a really really fun and energetic time with them and definately looking forward for the next game.

Monday, August 28, 2006


Something from Khai Xhuen:

Serena is a very cin cai she a girl..i'm not sure about it...hehe..just kdding..she doesnt cry nor get angry...she's a emotionless person...ahaha...only know how to laugh....but she can be a good friend..thats all i wnt to say...tis is her contact no...012-2345678...hehe...where got ppl post no. geh...

Its another new experience for me,
joining the Sunway cf, i found out that there are actually many outgoing christian in this place around me.
It started with the prayer session, everyone was allowed to pray but i just sat back and listen( just trying to get use to the new situation). Half way through the prayer session, i recieved a phone call from my mum...-she told me a story of working not by my own strength but God's strength(Its because i was lag with my studies and couldn't catch up)-... We chatted for about 10 minutes and i went back to prayer room.
Later we went to LT6 and the worship started. The songs were nice, one of the regenerating one was "I walk by faith". The speaker of that day was Pastor Anthony(a very joyful guy). Topic of the talk was " Coping with changes". One of the most important issue that is facing by most teenegers.
The key words of the day was Grace, Faith and Changes in life.

Change is an inevitable part of life. The problem we face in modern life is that change is taking place so fast that we have little chance to adapt or adjust before we are faced with additional changes. So how can we handle the massive amounts of change forced upon us by our job, our studies, our role as a christian, our personal life, and our society as a whole?

When faced with difficult issues of change in life we will often try to resist(though i'm the i don't care type). Even if we do not resist, we often enter into the process of complaining about what we have to deal with. I'll always cop with these changes with a few sessions of complaining around the and get over with it. Unfortunately, these sessions will not do me any good but wasting my time. So, should we simply keep our mouths shut and pretend that everything is fine? Maybe... , this alternative is a set-up for further frustration and struggle.

Feelings are neither right nor wrong. We must be able to talk about our frustrations but with a focus on recognizing clearly that there are things we cannot change. Our focus must be on how we can turn the changes into a benefit in our lives and make the best of life with our employer. God promises, not that we should have an easy life, but rather when life becomes difficult He will help us to take every negative factor that comes our way and turn it into a blessing—if we partner with Him in the process.

The conclusion that i made is that changes will happen in life(i worn't stay 18 forever) but we have to cop with changes the right way. The way that is right in the eyes of God. "Salt is good; but if the salt has lost its saltness, how will you season it? Have salt in yourselves, and be at peace with one another."

After that, i met up with Jeannie, Loschana, and Geetha... Had dinner in "orange" and went home to sleep.


Another new day, another new challenge.
I followed the church to the orang asli place in Pahang. We went to two villages- kampung senai and kampung batu. Dr. John picked me up at about 8.15am (Gave me the goat's milk). Then we went to the cafe near the church to yam cha and gather. After praying, we went straight to Pahang. There were all in 4 cars. We came to a small mamak that served nice wan ton mee, had our lunch and proceed.  The road to Kampung Senai was tough... We cross rivers, went through bumpy roads finally reached there. The orang asli came to see us and we brougth them many many things- rice, biscuit, tooth brush... We left after praying for them. Our next destination was  Kampung Batu... Its called kampung Batu for a very good reason- there are many batu there. This drive there was much harder. But by God's grace, we reached there safely. i went for a walk around, there were many fish ponds there. The air is fresh, the water is clear, the dogs are loyal and the people there were humble. I started by feeding the fish then went and teach the orang asli. I thought them how to colour, draw and also some english. We had our worship and dinner there(my toes were freezing) and left. I reached home at about 1.30am.

The things that i learned from this trip are:
1. Be thankful for everything we have
2. Human can be happy even with the minimum that we are living with
3. Bless others with what God has bless us with
4. There are sacrifices that we have to make if we want to do God's work- but its worth it
5. ... uncountable