Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Worshiping While Waiting (WWW)

Ku akan selalu menyembahMu
Kaulah Tuhan yang benar
Yang memahami dan menyayangi ku
Ku beri semua yang ku ada

Ku akan selalu menyembahMu
Meninggalkan segala galanya
Untuk menurut kehendak Kau
Itulah kehendak hidupku

Ku akan selalu menyembahMu
Di mana ku ada
NamaMu akan disembah
Kedengaran di mana jua

Ku akan selalu menyembahMu
Walaupun masa tidak izinkan
Kerana Kaulah sayangku
Ku sudi menantiMu

Christian living is not just a smooth flow, however we can find joy even in the darkest hour and the peace of God will be in us. For some, the hardest part of being a Christian is not, having to go to church, having to attend people, having to put on the forever smile. But its the waiting period. You do not have the “yes” or “no” answer. Its just written everywhere “just wait and see”.

However, it is this period of waiting that mold us, shape us, build us, and transform us, which increase our faith, which make us who we are in future.

In the mist waiting, the best thing to do is to continue to seek Him and WORSHIP Him.

Life’s like a tree, it takes time to get rooted deep inside, and grow up fertile to be seen.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

All in a night

Looking up,
Cool wind, nice trees, starless sky
Should I choose pollution or rural areas?
Can I have an unpolluted city?

Staring at the allay
A widow standing there, in my mind
Looking straight at us
Wondering “Why is life unfair”

Sitting at the stalls, eating
You’re so near, yet so far
When can we talk face to face
And not only "chat" for ages

Sitting in the car,
Discussing about random stuff
That will not make a change
But it’s a need to build relationships

Seeing from afar, thinking,
When will we be able to read minds?
All will be clear if it is so
But yet much disaster and hatred will come along

Life goes on
Will we regret the things we’ve done
Or the things that wanted but did not do
Is this about ego or reputation?

When will we know the truth?
Is the truth the best solution
Or is it better to have world peace
and not knowing the truth?

Thursday, April 17, 2008


In a dark small tunnel
Hearing the water dripping
Trying to find the little light
That will show the way

Following a dim light
Walking aimlessly
Just hopping to find the way out
Using all the senses

Filled with hope
The last breath
Taking the big step
Across a huge gap

Often searching
Still searching
What if I never get out?
There’s still little hope

Nothing much left
Only a little time
Little strength remaining
Just need to get to the top

Friday, April 11, 2008

Hotel Rwanda

As many of you know, its holiday time for me. I love holidays. It’s a time when you get to meet up with your old friends, spend more time with your youths, have more dinners with your family, catch up with movies.. etc…

Well, here are some movies that I watched lately.
The first one is Hotel Rwanda, Starring Don Cheadle(Paul). Its quite an old movie though. The movie is basically about a civil war between the Tutsi and Hutus. The thing that really touched my heart when I watched this movie is that how a guy can sacrifice, willing to go through hardship, willing to pay a high price when the neighbors, friends, family, and strangers turn to him. In this modern world we are living in, its more for I live for myself and maybe my family and perhaps a few close friends. Greed, selfishness, ego, we often ask this question “what’s in for me?”, and sometimes we tend to be too calculative, like we put all the things we do on a weighing balance.

Well, is it easier to give money to the beggar, to the needy, to random people then to give it to some of your relatives that are always asking for more?

And why is it that sometimes easier to give offering to the church then to give to your poor friends? And why is it that we feel better when we do mission overseas than in your country, or maybe just around the neighborhood? Doesn’t CHARITY START AT HOME?

Why is it that we treat people differently? Do we speak differently when we talk to or boyfriend compared to our family members? Or why do we even treat our friend differently with our family?
Why is it ok for us to play with the orphanage than to clean up a junk yard? Is it not both helping? Or do we only help when it is to our convenience?

In this movie, his love for human kind, not only for his own people but the ones that are different from him. LOVE. Yups, that is the missing ingredient in this world. Well, not only plain love, but how much we love. How far are we willing to go in the name of love? I can’t deny that its easy to love when it comes to our convenience but when its not, is it going to be a whole different story.

No one is perfect, but don’t make it an excuse for ourselves. I have a lot to learn from Paul. I believe that there is still room for everyone to grow in the context of love. Love, love, love, easier said than done. “LOVE”, a BIG, STRONG, MEANINGFUL, WONDERFUL word, yet, often taken lightly.

Next movie.. to be continued…

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Little Events

It has been a while since I got the time to update my blog. Since the last post was about the Holy Week, I guess I should continue from there. Well, there was a little gathering at my house on Friday in conjunction of Good Friday.
Never did I know that there are so many unexpected things that may happen in such a short time for such a short activity. But no matter how many unexpected things happen, there is always a way out, people will be sent to help us, and all things will turn out good as long as we don’t give up half way through and continue to pray. It all started in the afternoon, got stuck at a friend’s party and don’t have the transport to get home to prepare for my own, only got home 1 hour before the gathering started. There were suppose to be 11 of us, but in the end, only 8 of us turn out, 1 fell sick and two more had something on the last minute. Our transport guy was called to his own gathering but God is good, He sent a last minute substitute to get our pizza for us. It was a good day, but then it started to rain. Not only that, the car broke down half way and we were caught in the rain, outside Domino’s Pizza. My friend, a non-Christian was like “ you better start praying that the car can get started.” The pizza people were good, gave us the help we need and then the car got started and good to go in just a short time.
The whole gathering went on smoothly after that. A short worship, a short sharing, some questions, and overflowing supply of food, not only that, then came the additional sushi, beverage and also ice-cream from my new housemate’s mum. All of us had a great time, get to know each other a bit better.
It is not easy to plan stuff, especially when you don’t have the workforce needed. So many things that need to foresee. Prayer is need, and faith and work are equally important as well.
Much credit has to be given to Tracy and Chia Huey, for planning so many stuff for the cell and also their commitment. Imagine the number of phone calls they have to make, making sure that every details are taken care off, taking care of each and every member’s needs, often I overlooked the preparations that they have done for us. All the outing, the cell gathering, even weekend church meetings. Lets say I get about 10 messages from them every week, times with the number of people they message, plus the additional messages for certain follow up, its time consuming and a long list in your bills. The good thing about them is that they are not calculative when it comes to doing God’s work.
Maybe we should help them out here and there, if each and everyone takes care of a small thing, it will make their life easier. Or the least we can do is don’t complain!!! Well, maybe it is the human nature, it is not good enough, I don’t agree with this, I don’t agree with that. Well, suggestion is need to improve what we’re going through, but a helping hand is also needed much. Going through all these with high opportunity cost of relaxing at home, its their love for God and their love for man that keep them going I suppose.
No matter what we’re going through, continue to persevere and rely upon the strength of the Lord. Something I learned while growing in this church is that when problems come, we should pray for strength to overcome it, and not pray that the problem disappear. Well, its easier said than done, but you’ll not know until you really experience it for your own. We should not that God’s work lightly and more to that, prayer is the secret recipe to a successful planning. =D