Its been already 2 weeks since AS started. For those who know me, I hardly study.. till I started A-Level. It started with thinking skills.. the first paper was like a cannon - blast the opening ceremony of AS. *BOOM* It was unexpected… really unexpected. I never feel bad when I get bad results, when I am not as good as those around – that’s because I deserved it, the fact that I was lazy. I am happy for those who get good results, the fact that they put in so much effort and burning midnight oil all the time- they deserved it!
But when you start putting in effort, time, sacrificing your sleep, your entertainment, and yet you get the results as before, or ever worse, the world seem to be falling apart… questions such as ‘why do I even bother’, ‘is this worth it’, ‘am I just stupid’, ‘what’s the point of all this’…………. Now that we work hard, aren’t we suppose to get better results?
Sometime after the exam, it like the day has ended… you just need something to cheer you up… and if there is nothing else… just go to bed…………………….. sleep and sleep and sleep, and hope that everything will fall into pieces when you get up.
What else can we do? Hope for someone to give you a call and cheer you up? Go clubbing and forget about everything that happened? … when time like these, we ought to pray, seek for wisdom, seek for guidance, set our priorities right, focus on the next paper, and of cause it’s a bonus if someone give you a call and ask about the papers and cheer you up.
We complain and complain and complain… but we are not the only ones that are going through these things. This is just part of life – a small part of life – that may or may not determine our future. As for my case, it will… Look at the others that are going through harder and longer hours of paper, we should be thankful for all that we are going through and live the best out of it. CARPE DIEM.
Of cause through this time of trouble, there are always good people send by God to cheer us up.. for example, my mum gives me a call once in a while, my cell leader message and ask for updates, my cell member prayed for me… even Hari took me for dinner (after physics 2 - i was really down with my own peformance - but what to do? i din prepare as well as the others). Prom is also coming soon. My partner wanted to pay for my tickets, but I turned it down and got scolded by my whole house (each and every housemate) for doing that… but its very very very sweet for him to offer. =)
2 more weeks of exams to come. For all those out there, just sit back, relax, and as long as you have done your best, there’s nothing, no point to worry about it anymore.