The end of my holidays is now here.
Holiday is indeed a good time for us to think over our purpose in life and also some time for relaxation.
Over this holiday, i've finally concluded that my purpose for now is to stay focus and to do well in my studies.
I learned that God gave me this scholarship for a reason and a good reason. I must indeed do my best and not let Him and my family down. I know that i might not be the smartest person around but God has indeed blessed me. I realised that there is always at least a reason for someone to do something in life. The commitment is very important. My will may be strong for now but i also hope that my flesh will be strong as well. I don't ask of man to understand the reason why i am working hard now. But i do hope that even if they do not want to encourage me, they will at least try not to discourage me. But i will not blame them for it is not their fault that i am easily discourage. They might be saying many things that i might not want to hear but i always remind myself that i am not doing all these things for them and pray that God will continue to strengthen me in all that i do. May He continue to give me wisdom and will strenght to continue every single day of my life. All i want to do is to be able to shine for God wherever i go and that one day, i may have the chance to say that my results is indeed because of God's blessing. I'm looking forward to the day that i can actually say "It is all because of His blessing." In Due 28:13 it is said that, "The Lord will make you the head and not the tail". But i realised that the bible also speak of God help those who help themself. There may be many temptation in life and many times men tend to give in to them(i am one of them that always fall into temptations). But now i pray and believe that God knows my heart's desire and will indeed help me throughout this time of need.
All i pray for is that God will indeed bring good people that will encourage me and help me through difficulties into my life and continue to strengthen me in faith and trust in Him.
There was once a joke - the people put up a line on the wall saying "TRUST IN THE LORD" but the letter T dropped down after a while and the whole meaning changed into "RUST IN THE LORD". And come to think about it, i sometimes take life easy and forget my true purpose of life that is to bring glory to His name. I sometimes actually to rust in the Lord but i know that God will be there to keep an eye on me and will guide me back to the right path-
 whenever i start to stray away. But by God's grace, i will continue to grow in faith and do things according to His will.
I must indeed continue to work hard and to be able to testify for Him one day.